|Trey|
Ever since Ti and her sister joined us on tour,it's been crazy.She keep throwing herself on me and I don't think ima last around her.Jazz is everything I ever wanted and now that I have her I just don't know what do I love her with all of my heart and I don't want to lose her.I don't wanna live this lifestyle when every second some girl is throwing there selves at me.I can't handle this pressure............
|Jazz|
I woke up at 9,the usual.I let Jay skip today but he has a flight at 12 and he has like 3 hours with me.Ima let him sleep for another hour.I got out the bed and did my daily routine.I threw on Trey sweats and my white tee.I smelled food and walked in the kitchen and saw Darryl and Jayden talking.
"Bout time you woke up"said Jayden laughing.I see Darryl's PlayStation plugged into the TV.They had empty plates in front of them.
"So y'all niggas ain't cook me nun"I said
"It's in the microwave"said Darryl
"Y'all could've woke me up"I said rubbing my eyes
"You need your beauty sleep"said Darryl smiling
"Jay do you have your things packed,you leave in a few hours"I said
"Yeah I do"he replied
"What about you Darryl,do you have your things packed?"I asked
"Yeah the flight a 3."He said
"I hope you booked your room because my sister already booked mine"I said
"Yeah all that's handled"he replied
"So what we gone do today?"I asked
"Me and Jayden finna go to the mall"said Darryl
"Well damn.Have him back in time for his flight"I said handing Jayden my card.He can spend all he want.He needs to dress like he somebody.
"Ja—"He said
"Take it.Yall only got an hour or 2"I said as I pushed them out the door.
|Trey|
Our show at 7.Right now we at meet and greets and me and Ti is matching.I don't think I can control myself any longer around Ti.
|Jazz|
So Jayden and Darryl are just getting back.Darryl texted me and said that he styled Jay and I'm happy.My lil bro deserves to be happy.They walked in with hella bags.
"Wassup"I said as Darryl sat by me
"I'm finna go"said Jay
"I already called his Uber"said Darryl
"Well give me hug before you go"I said and we hugged.
"Love you"He said as he walked near the door
"Love you too.Visit me"I said and he walked out.
"I will"he yelled and he was gone
"So Darryl you still coming"I asked
"Our flight at 3.Trey and them perform at 8 or you gonna go straight to Ken"I asked
"Wherever you go"he said
"Oh well we got an hour til we leave"I said
"I know"he said getting up.
"Where you finna go?"I asked
"I'm taking my game back home"he said laughing.His smile is so cute.
I started scrolling on ig and I almost dropped my phone.Xxxtentacion has been shot,dead.His music has helped me through so many suicidal thoughts and depression.My heart is broken right now.I haven't told Trey that I've been going through some things lately.I haven't told anybody and its eating me alive.X's music has helped me and now he's gone.All because some bum ass nigga wanted what he had instead of working for it and X was only 20.Trey's only 19 and Darryl and Ar'mon is 20.They love to wear expensive clothes and stuff.Just looking at X laying motionless in his car like that is really getting to me.I think I gotta throw up.
I got up and ran to the toilet.Liquids and food started coming back out my mouth.I feel so bad right now about X and everything.Like this really hurt me and ion know about life anymore.I need Trey right now.I need to pull myself together right now.I need to stop getting emotionally attached to people,and things because when they die parts of me do.I got up and got a hot rag and washed my face.I think ima take a shower.So I got out an outfit that I'm wearing to Atlanta.It was a red Supreme sports bra and my red Supreme joggers and my red and white Supreme shoes.I'll probably get Darryl to take me to get my hair styled hopefully by Kim.A quick style probably gonna let her put some gel or some in my hair.I'll do my make-up.But like X dying killed my whole mood and it's pissing me off to know some bums killed him.I need his music and without it I'm empty......
