Jazz
"You and that bitch and her baby need to go die somewhere"
"Get yo shit and go die"
"And when I die don't come to my fucking funeral"
Those words rang in my ears the whole time.
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"I'm fine please let me go"I cried.Those are the first words I said since I've been at this hospital.I don't wanna live anymore...
"Mam too much stress can harm this baby"she said while holding me down
"Let me go.The person I'm in love with is in there dying on a table"I screamed.I looked down to realize I'm still in the same clothes with his blood all over me.
"Mam"she said.
"You can't hold me in here against my will"I said and I got out.My whole body won't stop shaking.
Ar'mon
"Lil bro everything gone be okay.When the baby comes you and Jazz relationship gone get better.Yall still love each other.You have to live for your baby"
I remember the words I last said to him.
"Jazz you have to clean up.Look everybody at vidcon booked hotel rooms and we have one.So please come on.I'll buy you new clothes"I said as I held her in my arms.
The next day
Trey almost didn't make it through the night and pulling the plug is the final option.
Ar'mon
Trey getting shot ain't even the worst part about all of this.Telling millions of people all of this.So many of them came to the hospital over night saying their goodbyes to him.My mom and sisters made it this morning and Queen and Airi stayed with me and Jazz at the hotel last night.Cause they made us leave last night.So now everybody taking turns going in his room before they pull the plug.
Queen
Just being in my bro room looking at him like this is hurting me so much.Cj couldn't even sleep last night without screaming out for Trey and Clare.
"Wow Trey.I never thought that I would be telling you goodbye at such a young age.You were always there when I needed you and always took up for me.You always offered your shoulder to cry on and your keys to get food.*Chuckles.I just can't find the words to tell Cj that uncle Trey won't be here anymore bro.I tried but he wouldn't believe it.I cried all night bro.You don't deserve this.You have family,fans,friends,and a little girl on the way bro.I had news to tell you.I wanted to tell you first because we tell each other every thing.Im expecting bro.Im pregnant and I don't know if you or Clarence is going to see it.Im going to make sure she knows of you.I love you to death Trey.I remember when everybody shipped us together but we would always be like we're like the exact same people.We are like the exact same people.We love all the same things but most of all singing.I hope you sing up in heaven with the Angels Trey.I have so much more to say but no time.I love you to the moon and back."
I kissed his forehead and walked out of his room and his mom walked in.
Mrs.Shiquita
Treyvion,my dear dear Treyvion.I remember when me and your father was having problems and I had just found out I was pregnant with you.I cried all that night and finally pulled myself together to tell him in the morning.He was so excited to have a little boy and he wanted you to be a junior.But the name Treyvion popped up and I fell in love with it.When Ar'mon was 3 and you were just about to turn 2.He always held you and I remember one time he dropped you.I wouldn't let him hold you but that's all he'd ever talk about is how he love his little brother.When you two told me y'all wanted to sing,I was so proud y'all wasn't no thugs.Yall made mama so proud and did everything I wished.A mother isn't supposed to bury her child.But I can't do anything about it.I love you so much baby.Im gonna make sure your brother and your child keeps your legacy going.I remember you used to make me breakfast in the morning and it never was done.But it was always the effort that mattered.The thing that hurts me most as a mother is that my child is hurting and I can't do anything about it.My child is going to die and I can't stop it.My child baby.My son is hurting,you are hurting and I can only watch you.I don't know if I'm hurting by letting these machines keep air in you or if letting you go Peacefully.I don't want to let them kill you but it's hurting you more.Knowing that a machine is putting air into you instead of you not breathing on your own.I could never over come this.My youngest son dead at 19.It doesn't make any sense but God makes no mistakes.No one is perfect yet he is and he makes no mistakes.Baby he has a plan for you.This is it.I love you and I will see you in the after life my son
I kissed him on his head as Ar'mon walked in...
Ar'mon
I don't even know where to start.My dawg,my homie,my ride or die,my roll dog,the goat,my go to person,my shooter,my best friend,but most of all my little brother.You know some bro,I tried to be strong for mama,and our sisters,and Jazz but how can I be strong for them when I can't even be strong for myself.I didn't want to come in here bro and see you like this.If I could trade places with you right now,I would.I wish I would've been there bro.You were always there when I needed you and the one time you needed me I failed you bro.I should've took your bullet so you could be here for Jazz and your daughter.You can't go out like this.Mama told me not cry.I stayed with Jazz last night to make sure she was okay.As soon as she went to sleep I cried my eyes out,You are everything I wanted in a brother.I remember you cried when I went to kindergarten because you wanted to go with me.You even snuck on the bus and got a whooping all because you wanted to be like your big bro.Man words can't explain how much I love my little brother.I love yo ugly ass.You always had my back and never snitched when I did wrong.I remember you used to chase me around the house and mama would be yelling.I remember we used to have to beta niggas fro disrespecting us in school.Then when we became stars they wanna fw us then.I know I'm hurt bro but Jazz is in there crying her heart out.I love you but the love you two shared was everything.I know y'all had y'all issues and stuff but I love her like my sister and respect her as the mother of my niece.This shit is really fucking with me Trey.No one is used to seeing me without you.Its "Ar'mon and Trey",I can't do this by myself.Bro I can't live like this,knowing my little brother gone.Trey.I prayed last night that God would save you.Save you from the pain you're feeling.Maybe that's what this is.Him taking you away from the pain that life gives you and opening new doors up for you in heaven.Its not the save I meant but this is his plan.You're gonna be Okay now bro.No more pain,no more tears,no more suffering.But I can't be a father figure to your little girl.I just can't.Im sorry bro.She needs you,Jazz needs you,we need you but most of all I need you.I need my little brother.But I can't let your death just stay in the past.Your legacy lives on my brother...Big brother loves you
I walked out and a sad Jazz entered.Man oh man
Jazmine
Trey I'm sorry.Im so so sorry for everything baby.Im sorry.I should've never said that to you because I never would've thought this would have happened.You didn't deserve this.I can't let you go knowing you died hating me.I don't think I wanna be on this earth anymore.Without you it's not the same.Everybody has been telling me not to stress because something can go wrong with our baby.Trey I can't do this anymore.The love of my life is living through a machine.You're not even here anymore.Im just talking to your body.Trey deep down I hope you're in there and can hear me.I remember how hard you used to try when we were in the reality house.You used to call me beautiful and flirt even though I was so into women.I never realized what was right in front of me.Then when I did drugs you were always there for me.When I tried to kill myself you were right there by my side.I can't look at you laying lifeless like this.Its killing me.Baby it's killing me from the inside.The doctors told me this baby is coming at any time.She won't even get a chance to meet you.She won't know her father.Baby all I can do is say sorry.They didn't even want me coming in here because it's just too much.I never thought I would say I'm in love and pregnant.You were so patient with me even when I couldn't be loyal.I always failed you as a girlfriend.I could never be the perfect lover.I could never do anything right and I'm sorry.The only good thing is our baby.Trey you waited on me.You waited on my love.And I failed you.Im so so sorry.The late nights,cuddling,talking,and just having fun with you.You were m- are my best friend , soul mate, and lover and I couldn't ask for anything better.Trey you made my life so much better and without you I'm nothing.Your mom won't even let your sisters see you like this Trey.Its too much.Not only did I lose you but,a mother lost her son,your siblings lost their brother,your fans lost their idol,our daughter lost her father,a grandmother lost her grandson,a father lost his son,but God gained an Angel.Through all of this tragedy,God got you baby.You're in his hands now.I love you,we love you.
I put his hand on my stomach as the nurse walked in.She asked me if I'm ready and I shook my head yes,crying.I kissed him one last time....
She pulled the plug...
