Trey sleep on my stomach.I feel so dirty for having sex with Darryl and not telling Trey.The fact that the whole purpose of us not having sex is to make sure everything was good with him.And I made a mistake that is gonna cause our whole relationship.I started running my hands through his hair thinking about our anniversary.A whole year with the love of my life.I feel like we need to do that reality house again.But the fact that Darryl is gonna be there too.The whole point of the show is too fix relationships.Our relationship is not broken.In order to fix something,it must be broken.I am broken.All of this time I thought it was the little stuff that ruined us but it was me.Trey has tried so hard to love me but I push him away every time.I mentally abuse him.I can get away with anything and he won't leave.I'm selfish.The one thing he wants is a child and I still don't wanna give him that,He by my side through everything and do love him.This whole little couples thing starts on Monday meaning we have to be in Texas.
Trey sleepily opened his eyes and pulled me closer and put his head back on my chest.
Just thinking bout all this stuff that's happening is crazy.A picture got leaked of me and Trey walking and holding hands.We haven't told our fans that we're back together.When I Vlog,I keep Trey away from the camera because social media puts a strain on our relationship.He does videos with Ar'mon and everyone seems happy.But everything is not what it seems.
-You may see beauty and happiness on the outside.But looking at someone else's life is almost a jealous move on your behalf because you're willing to go the extra mile to say you're better than someone.Some even find happiness in doing such.Other people's lives may seem in place and well sequenced like a book.But when entering their mind it's a night mare with pages everywhere.That person is most likely broken or lost or maybe even both,flashing fake smiles and living a life that is not theirs.They are forced to be someone their not because of the people on the outside looking in.Fearing the knowledge of someone else only for the simple fact,that what they know can harm you.Bottling up your emotions and not telling anyone is mental abuse to yourself.Causing yourself unnecessary pain.Being a slave in your own mind,your temple,knowing that your freedom lies in your hands,the key you hold is to unlock your shackles and free yourself.Don't paint yourself as false portrait.Act as if you're a picture in a museum.The people who walks by can't touch you.You're untouchable"
Just a little something I wrote💖That piece is original✨I have some big chapters coming up.Comment❗️
