I'm sitting here with Cj and Jasmeena crying my eyes out.I didn't mean a single word that I told Trey.I even said I wish this was someone else's baby.That shit wasn't right but I know where he coming from.He has to put up with me and my mood swings.He declined all of my calls and keep leaving me on read.I love Trey with all of my heart.He posted on his story "I'm single".I posted on mine "No he not" and he was the first person to see it.I need to start acting like I'm his girlfriend.Well I have t earn that spot now.Its late now and Queen and them just left for the club.Issa hour drive so they gone be out all night.Im stuck with the kids.But I love being call TT and big sissy and soon mommy.
"Who wants ice cream"I said
"Me"Jasmeena and Cj both said and started laughing
"Okay what flavor"I asked
"Nilla"Cj said
"Tocalate"Jasmeena said
I got them ice cream cones and put the flavors on them.
They made a big mess.I let them watch cartoons.We watched spongebob for a whole hour.
"Auntie Tazz"Cj said
"Yes baby"I said
"Can I sleep with Tas"Lmao I guess that's short for Jasmeena.
"No lil boy"I laughed and he poked his lip out.
"Pwease"He said
"I'll think about it"I said
"I'm hungry"Jasmeena said
"What you want to eat"I asked
"Pizza"Cj said
"Okay y'all stay right here and don't move"I said as I got up and walked in the kitchen.I got out a big frozen pizza and put it in the oven.I sat back down and started combing Cj hair.Jasmeena stood on the couch brushing mine.She look so much like me.She posed to be leaving soon.
The oven beeped and I got up and took the pizza out and let it cooled.I poured Cj apple juice and Jasmeena grape juice because that's their favorite .I put two pieces on their plates and they started eating.I ain't even fix me any.I really feel sick and tired and I need help with the kids but I don't mind being here with them.
"It's time to bathe"I said
"Nooooo"Jasmeena screamed
"Yes now come on both of you"I said.
Jasmeena got on my back and Cj walked behind us.
Ima bathe them together.They both too young too do anything.I grabbed them a fresh change of clothes and I ran some water and added bubble bath.I let Cj get in first and then I put Jasmeena in.They we're laughing and playing with the bubbles the whole time.I washed them and picked them up to get out.But they started crying so I'll give them a few more minutes.I walked to my room and picked my phone up.Its blowing up from IG.They we're blaming me for the breakup,Well it is my fault.Trey in my comments fighting them off.He started it.So I'm finna go live.Right off the back I got 45k views with the quickness.I sat on the floor and turned my back so they couldn't see the kids.
"So as y'all know Trey said he was single.So basically I had a bad day and lashed out on him.He was being super nice and patient and I was annoyed and we started arguing.I said some pretty hurtful stuff to him.I'm wrong in this situation not him.Hey Cierra,I miss you too sis."
All these comments calling me bitch and hoe.
"Stop calling me out of my name.I just fucking I mean freaking said,kids up in here but I just said that it was a misunderstanding.Yall know I love Trey.He was my first official boyfriend.He is the only man I have ever loved."
Somebody comment said "Would you dip back into the lady pond,if you and Trey stop fw each other."
"See me and Trey gone always have to speak because I'm having his child.We will never stop fucking with each other but we might stop fucking each other".
Cj ran out the tub.I started laughing and quickly covered him with a towel.
"Omg y'all excuse him.But ain't my nephew cute."
A comment said "Are you doing a pregnancy photo shoot"
"I am actually.I wanted Trey to be in it but he doesn't have too."
_treytraylor joined your live
"When is your due date"
"So at first I couldn't get a clear conception date so they couldn't tell me when the baby was forming and when it was coming out.But I'm due November 5th.So how about I have panel at VidCon in late October"
"What type of panel"
"Me and Trey had couples panel and I'm about to call and cancel but they gone say it's to late and they can't find another high profile couple.Yall know the Trazz Family just hit 8 milli.Ima change the name to our baby's once it's here.Im posting the reveal footage right now so be ready.Yall our baby gone be here in 4 months Well about 3 now and I'm so happy."
"Did you get the tubes"
"Omg yes I got the tubes.They all in the house.Look it's one connecting the rooms and you can crawl through it.Its slides and stuff y'all,it's so cool.Ima invite some of my fanpages out here to spend the day with me.Its gone be lit."
I put my phone on the counter so I could dry these babies off.
"So y'all I have Jasmeena and Cj with me.Yall they gone be the perfect little couple in the future.He told her she beautiful y'all.Melted my heart.Oh I know y'all wondering why I got Cj.So Queen and Clarence and the squad visiting me and they out right now.So I can't drink,so I volunteered to stay and watch them.Yall I still ain't posted my house tour but it's coming.Im feeling so sick right now y'all but ima put the kids to sleep before I do anything cause ion like no one seeing me sick and in pain.I feel like I need to eat but I can't force it yet I'm eating for two.Im finna show y'all the kids."
I picked up my phone and showed them Jasmeena and Cj smiling and laughing.I squinted to see the comments.DDG commenting and shit starting with Trey.He still watching.Omg
"Wait y'all done started something.Darryl is happy with his girlfriend, I'm pretty sure.Im not trying to hurt his feelings but any other relationship I was in after me and Trey broke up the first few times, was a revenge plot.I love Darryl as my friend,I respect him as my brother.And yes we did have sex but I regret it.Im sure of that now.I do love him but as my friend.Wait him and Kennedy broke up (looking at comment).Lmao why y'all telling me she throwing shots at me.I don't care.I said that about all my niggas exes.Me and DDG relationship was rooted off of negative and vengeful energy from our past situations.I guess he my ex or whatever and he mad bitter.Nigga didn't even wait Nevermind.But anyways Trey call me, I wanna hear your voice"
I ended the live.Cj and Jasmeena running everywhere.
"Who wants cookies"I yelled.Both of them took off running down the stairs and it took all my energy to make it to the kitchen.I started making coffee as I poured each of them a glass of milk.I sat the coffee on the little machine and started mixing cookie mix for them.They on the couch with their IPads watching mommy finger and peppa pig.Lord Jesus be with me.Cause all my food finna come back up and my head killing me.I took the cookies out the oven,turned it off and let them cool.I sat 3 on each of their plates and walked it to them with milk.I watched them eat and then I ate mines.The milk was making me sleepy but I'm in pain.Its 11:30.Queen and them ain't coming home any time soon.
"TT and big sister has been good for letting y'all stay up this long,time for bed"I said.They both look tired so I walked them up the stairs and tucked them into bed.I took them to a room with twin beds so they can be in the same room.I sat for like a hour just laughing and talking to them.I heard something similar to bang outside and I peaked out the window and I saw a shadow.My heart dropped to my toes.I put my hands over the kids mouthsThen I heard a glass break.I slowly closed the door.I picked up my phone and called Trey.
"What you want"he said sleepily
"T-trey someone is in the house"I whispered
"Jazz stop fucking with me"he said back
"Trey I'm not fucking lying,Jasmeena and Cj are here"I cried
"Jazz stop playing"he said
"Trey I'm not,If you hear something happened to me and our child.Just know I died defending my little sister and nephew"I said crying and I hung up.
"I want you two to hide in the closet under the clothes.Play the quiet game and whoever wins gets free candy.Can y'all do that for me"I whispered.They nodded their little heads and I closed the closet door.I turned the lock on the door so when I close it,it will lock them in.
I made my way out of the room.
