Months later
"Happy Birthday to you"we all sing to my baby.We smushed the little cake on her face and she started licking and clapping her hands.Me,Queen,Cj,Airi,And Daniel are all in Washington with my family.I even let Jazzilyn come,she's expecting a child.
It took some time to get over that but hey I'm focusing on me and having this baby peacefully.Instead of being a bitch,I actually invited Trey and he's supposed to be here.Its not my fault if he don't come,cause I did my part.
"Sis she is so beautiful"Queen rubbed her belly.She finna pop at any time now. "Thanks,where's Cj"I asked.She looked at spotted him kissing Jasmeena.
"Oh hell naw.Cj get over here right now"Queen yelled.We've gotten super close since I dropped my song.Its called LOST and it's about I How I feel in a relationship.It did just like her song Medicine did.Now we're both on top.
"Big sissy I ate Cj's lips"she smiled.Omg they are so cute.Ima probably keep Jasmeena for a while and let her start school in ATL with Cj.She'll have so much fun.
"Owww"I screamed. "Why you do that"I asked holding my stomach. "It kicked you so I had to kick it back"she stuck her tongue out at my belly.I'm 8 months.She just kicked my stomach hard asf. I popped her hand.
"Congratulations Jazmine."My step mom Teresa came over and hugged me.I took a twin from her.Jaylen.He looks just like Jay. "Awe he's so cute"I said and I kissed his forehead.I'm having a little boy too. I'm naming him Amarion Levell Traylor.I still respect the fact that this is Trey's son.I was hoping to tell him what I'm having today but hey idc.
"Who that little girl"I pointed.She's standing by my dad.Don't tell me I got another sister. "That's Jayden's little girl"she smiled. That's what he was hinting at in his journals.I just put that together.She's almost white.Damn what him and Emily was doing?
"What's her name"I asked on the verge of tears.I'm always super emotional. "Jazmine"she said.I put my hands over my mouth and started crying.Wow he named her after me.
"She's beautiful"I mumbled.Teresa hugged me and walked away.Jaylen smiling.He is so freaking cute.Jasmeena walked over to me.This lil girl 4,she got plenty of sense.
"Where's Trey?"she asked me with her poked out lip. She ain't seen him in God knows when.I thought she would've forgot him by now but yet she remembers that name.
I'm just thinking....One year ago today I had my beautiful baby.One year ago today Tae died.Two years ago today McQueen died.Darryl was on life support and I lost my first child.Oh and Trey almost died.I forgot about that part.
But today,we'll today.My baby turned one.She looks all pretty.I feel so bad that I cut her hair.It was long and it gave her rashes and stuff.She still look cute though.I gave Jayla the baby I was holding and picked up my own.
My dad switched the song to forever. "You ain't gotta question this,shawty ima always ride out"Jasmeena and Cj sang.They so grown.Then it got to Trey part after a while
"Dada"I looked down and Ar'mani was bobbing her head.She really said dada.Her first word.I started smiling.Airi started smiling too.She recorded the whole thing.Daniel playing in the Bouncy.
"She said dada"I told Queen.She started smiling super hard.Jazzilyn and her man walked over holding her big stomach.
"Congratulations Jazmine."Darryl said to me. "Thanks"I muttered. "Can we have a minute"DDG asked my sister."So what are y'all expecting"I asked. "Oh that's not my baby.She cheated on me.But I accepted her apology"he said.
"Oh damn."I said.Wow she really did that to him.Well Damn.He wanted a relationship so bad that he'll accept anything that she does.Sounds familiar.Trey tolerated my cheating and I couldn't do him the same way.Man Damn.
You know leaving Trey actually helped me yet hurt me at the same time.I really have gotten some much needed time for myself.Its been me,my baby,and Jasmeena and Cj occasionally.I even kept the twins a few times.
I haven't seen Trey in 7 months.Thats about 210 days.But who's counting?I could've moved on a long time ago.I chose not too.
I can move on easily but I don't wanna start again.
The only bad thing is that I hate being alone.Like I have no one to depend on.Trey has reached out to me several times.He's called every two days and each time I hit decline.One night I couldn't wake up.It was like something was over me and all I heard was Ar'mani crying.Then she stopped abruptly.Once I woke up I went in her room she was happy and Forever was playing.I think Trey was there but it probably wasn't.
Just a thought^
"I remember when Dan turned one.He was so bald headed."Airi laughed.She is such a nice person and I'm glad she came into my life.
"Time to open gifts"I yelled.Everyone went in the house and sat down.
I'm a little emotional.My baby's first word was dada.That nigga ain't even around but that's the first name.At she least she knows his voice because the song was playing.Im so jealous.
"This is from Aunt Queen and Aunt Airi"I said loudly.They bought her two pairs of shoes.They customized with her name on it.I thanked them for it.
"This is from uncle Ar'mon."He bought her a little Gucci belt with a little headband.She little,she don't care about materialistic things.But I smiled at the gesture.At least someone apart of his family care.
"Awe thanks.The next gift is from grandma Teresa and papa"I said.They bought her the typical stuff.Like diapers and stuff.They got a shirt with her initials on it.
"Thanks.This is from all of your tetes"I pointed to a stack that was super high.I looked at them and everyone started opening them up for her.She smiled and clapped her hands.
I spent damn near an hour unwrapping gifts.They are so cute.I can't wait to get home and add more stuff to her room.She'll love all the colors and stuff.I picked up the last gift.Its in a tiny box.I removed the lace and the note in which was attached.
I picked up the little diamond necklace/locket.Tears immediately started burning my eyes.I opened it to see a family picture we took.Me,Trey,and Ar'mani
Appreciate the life that your mother gave you
Every day a beautiful black woman takes her time to raise you
You're too young to understand what this means
Happy Birthday My Tiny Little Queen
I smiled at his letter and put it in the box and another one fell out.
I try to be a good parent.I really do.I don't want her to live the life that I once lived.Those were some dark times.I spent all this time trying to find myself and I'm still
LOST!!!
I read the second letter...
To the world you may be one
But to one you mean the WORLD...
Look up!
I looked up and there stood Trey...
This is not the end of the book.The other book was boring so I'll just continue this one.Sorry
