1 whole month later.
So I decided not to go through with the procedure.Trey has been happy since I told him the news.But that doesn't defeat the fact that I haven't had sex in about 4 months.Ion know why but Trey doesn't want too.He used to be the one always ready.Sex shouldn't be too important in a relationship but it is and he doesn't want me like that anymore.And if I talk about it,he'll just jump up and wanna do it.Then it'll feel forced.Since I lost our child,I've been going to they gym and trying to regulate my body.How he want kids but don't wanna make em.I mean our relationship is good when it comes to communication, but I don't wanna tell him about this.I am so insecure and Trey knows it.He knows how I feel about myself after everything.So basically I need sex which sounds about stupid as hell.Plus our 1 year anniversary is next week.I'm not planning anything special and I really don't care about it,or him to be honest.He's not even here right now.Jason came and got him.They probably gone end up killing each other but I don't care.Im finna go see Darryl.He got out of the hospital 3 weeks ago and he's back to normal like nothing ever happened.So I'm gonna go chill with him.He treats me better than Trey.So I threw on some shorts and a crop top and I ain't put no shoes on because he right across the hall.I pulled my hair which is black now in a ponytail and I grabbed my new phone.I walked across the hall and knocked on the door.
He opened the door with a towel on.Oh no
"Hey Darryl"I said happy ash
"Hey Jazz come in"he said letting me in.
"How have you been"I asked
"Good actually.What about you"he asked sitting down beside me with his towel on.I had to scoot.
"I'm good too just working on some personal stuff."I said
"Well I'm single.Tired of her and her bs"he said
"Man bruhhh I ain't had sex in a hot minute"I said just talking off othe top of my head.
"Lmao same here but I'm just chilling right now"he said laying his head down.Like put some clothes on.
"Nigga go put some clothes on"I said scooting because he still had his towel on.
"Okay nigga damn"he said laughing then the moment he stood up his towel fell.My mouth almost dropped and my eyeshot big.
"Darryl put some clothes on"I said stuttering
He sat back down and layed the towel on him.Whew.But then his thing started rising.
He scooted closer to me and kissed me
I starting thinking and getting my apologies ready for Trey.I regret what I'm finna do
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