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|Jazz💘|
I'm just waking up and my flight in about two hours.I cried all night long.I look a mess.My eyes kinda hurt,I guess I cried too much.Im trying not to stress but I just can't keep the thought of him and someone else's baby out of my mind.I think ima have this baby sooner than later.I can just feel it.Well physically I'm prepared but mentally I'm not.But I think Trey was telling the truth.I never hear him out.I always lash out and push him away.When he called me a bitch,I deserved it now I feel bad cause I told him go somewhere and die.He called me this morning but I didn't answer.I called him a few times and went back to sleep.I feel really bad cause he was gonna propose to me.He threw the ring at me but it didn't hurt me.But it hurt my feelings.If I keep acting the way I do ima end up pushing away the best thing that's happened to me.
I got out the bed and went straight to the bathroom to pee.I got up and brushed my teeth and washed my face.Im rushing because I know I have to lock down the house and it take hours to do that.Fuck...
I put on some gray jogging pants and a big ass red champion shirt.I'll change in my dressing room when I get there.I started doing my make up.It looks good to me.I put on my Gucci slides.Trey left his stuff here.He probably hates me.He'll probably but new clothes before he comes back.The only time he'll come back is for the baby.I think ima name her Peace Sincere Traylor.I like that name.
I feel like our relationship won't work because of me.My mind is so out of place right now.Sometimes I just feel like crying and not telling nobody the reason.I'm trying so hard not to do what I used to do.But damn,the urge just keep coming at me.To do stupid shit to myself.
I started shutting rooms down and turning off lights.Im finna start a vlog.I walked back to my room and I opened the glass door leading to the balcony.I put my bags on the stairs leading to the pool and I pulled out my vlog camera.
"What is up to my gang.Welcome to today's vlog.So today is vidcon and it is currently 8:30 and my flight is under an hour and I'm late.But the house ain't locked down.So im finna let yall See how funny I look trying to shut all these houses down.I sat the camera on the rails of the steps.I took off running the best I can while holding my back.I ran to every house locking up and turning off lights.I did that to the other out houses and I took the floats out of the pool.I started closing the gates.
Just imagine a fat pregnant lady running around outside looking stupid.I'm so tired and I only got a few minutes to get to the airport so I called my Uber and ran to the front.Well jogged cause I'm tired.I got into the Uber and nodded off.My driver tapped on my shoulder and I got out and went into the airport.A man helped me with my bags cause I'm tired.My feet and my back killing me.Plus my stomach hurting really bad.
I went through luggage search and I begged them to let me on the plane cause I'm late.
I got on the plane and went to sleep.
|DDG| -I think this his first time having a POV💀
I feel really bad for ending things with Jazz through a text.That was real low of me especially the day after we buried her brother.I feel like crap.And Kennedy not making anything better by throwing shots at her all day.I need to make things right with Jazz even if that means us just being friends.I just need her in my life again.She makes me happy just by speaking to me.I messed everything up.Well not really though.She wants Trey so bad.I knew from the jump I couldn't take her from him,I don't even know why I tried so hard.Cause at the end,I'm the one that lost everything.While they're living life and about to have a baby...
|Jazz|
I opened my eyes and We ten minutes from landing.I looked at my phone and I saw ten missed calls all from Nahmir.I already know what he finna say...
I called him back
"Hello."I said while gritting my teeth.
"Don't be on no fuck shit Jazz.Ya west traps got raided.We tried stopping em and we shot a few."he said
"I trusted yo ass to hold everything down while I'm pregnant.You know I don't want my baby mixed in with this.But call the cleanup team."I gritted my teeth some more.Man I been trying to get out of this fucking lifestyle.
"Ight boss lady"he flirting hard as a mf
"When I have my baby,I'm calling a meeting to order.So what I want yo punk ass to do is get my fucking shit back and find out how they know where our shit was now bye"I said.
"Stop being a bitch and come"he got cut off by a mad ass me
"YBN I basically let you sit in my chair ass boss and you pulled this fuckery.If I don't have my traps fully stocked when I see you ima slit ya throat"I said
"Why you still running shit!You all about clean money like you ain't using drug money for yo house"he laughed
"So you questioning my position now?Ight"I said
"I ain't questioning it,you might me though.Boss Lady"he snickered
"Nigga I'm pregnant for one thing.And I can't be around that shit cause I might smoke it again and fuck my life up"I said being deadass
"You left yo day ones for a bunch of shit.I mean you hang with some cool mfs and they my brothers but this gone get up to you.I can't run yo shit fo much longer.The FBI already on to us"he said
"Didn't you pay off the Feds with the money I gave you"I said while reaching for my bags.
"Uhhh"He stammered
"Oh so you fucked me over,yo family.Where my fucking money?"I said loudly
"I can get it back"he cried
"Shut up"I said
"No please don't fire me"he said like he wasn't a millionaire.Why he wanna stay in the streets when he has money.Some ain't right
"Stop begging"I said
He continued.
"I said stop fucking begging.With yo dumb ass and,yo bitch ass.But I'm making it clear now if I get caught,I'm not getting arrested.I have connections therefore yo little pussy ass gone be the first one they pick up.You need to be begging for your life and not a job.Yo dumb ass never cover up ya tracks and gone end up getting fucked up.Don't get caught slipping cause I might be the one with the trigger"I snickered and hung the phone up.
