Crankgameplays Imagines

Please, Dont Worry

~ Your POV ~

When your eyes flutter open, your waist feels cold, due to the absence of the arm that is usually wrapped around there every morning. Your eyebrows furrow in confusion, and you roll over in bed, to see nothing but a note on Ethan's pillow. Sitting up, your confusion grows, but upon reading the note, your confusion grows to concern.

"Good morning gorgeous,

Im sorry Im not there when you wake up, but I woke up feeling really shitty and Im gonna record some videos to try and take my mind off it. I dont feel sick, so dont worry. Please, dont worry. Im sorry.

Love,

Ethan x"

Alarm bells start ringing inside your head, and in an instant you're bolting down the stairs to your boyfriend's recording room. Gently knocking on the door, you push it open, to see Ethan sitting at his recording setup, a truly miserable expression on his face as he edits a video he must have just finished recording. You approach him, walking up behind him and loosely wrapping your arms around his shoulders. The reaction you were expecting was either a stressed sigh and for him to tell you he's working, or for him to jump at your touch because he hadnt noticed you walk in. However, when Ethan simply holds your arms and brings you closer to him without saying a word, you know that something is very, very wrong.
"Ethan, babe, you shouldnt force yourself to record and edit when you're feeling like this. It'll only stress you out to the point of exhaustion, and the end result wont be something you're happy with. Please, take a break today." You plead with him.
Ethan's usual reaction would be at least a small bit of resistance, because he really doesnt like taking time off, and he tries to find any excuse to keep working if he can. But again, his reaction is far from what you expected.
A weak, and very small "Ok" passes from his lips, and that is the only response you get.
You walk around him and take his hands in yours, Ethan staring at you with glossy eyes, appearing so fragile that he's seconds from shattering like glass. Pulling him to his feet, you let of one of his hands, an reach up to gently caress his cheek. As soon as your fingertips make contact with his face, he closes his eyes in a pained blink and uses his free hand to hold yours against his cheek. Without saying anything, you pull him into your arms, yours wrapping around his neck while his lock around your waist, his face hidden in your hair. Your heart aches inside your chest, seeing the man you love in so much mental pain, for a reason that you dont understand yet.

The two of you stand in his recording room, hugging in silence, for what feels like an eternity, but you sense that's what he needed. Pulling away from him and take his hand in yours again, you lead him out of his recording room and into your living room. You lie down on the couch, and before you even have time to open your arms out to him, Ethan lies down on top of you, his head resting on your chest, and one of his hands finding yours. With your free hand, you start playing with his hair, and the second he feels your fingers in his hair, his entire body relaxes.
"What's goin' on in the head of yours, bud?" You ask him quietly, your tone gentle, because you dont want to push him if he doesnt want to talk about it.
A moment of silence passes, as Ethan tries to figure out what to say, before he whimpers "I dont know, I just...feel sad."
You nod in understanding "It's ok, what you're feeling is totally normal. Everyone has their off days, you cant expect yourself to be immune to that, not ever."
Ethan sniffles "I didnt want you to see me like this."
You raise an eyebrow "Why?"
He squeezes your hand "Didnt want you to worry."
Your mind flashes back to the note he left you. Please dont worry, he said.
"I'll always worry about you when you're not alright, that's a given." You tell him.
Ethan shakes his head "You shouldnt have to deal with me like this, it's not fair on you."
Your eyes widen at his words, and it takes you a second to compose yourself before you can respond "Ethan, I want you to listen to me very carefully. Right now, you are no different to who you were yesterday, or the day before, or the day before that. You're the same person, you're just not feeling good, and that's completely normal. I love you everyday, no matter what mood you're in, because I love you, and you arent a different person just because you're sad. If I only loved you on your good days, I'd be the worst girlfriend in existence. It's an honour to be the one to help you through this, to stick by you and comfort you when you need it, especially because I know you arent the biggest fan of opening up to people. I love happy Ethan the same amount I love sad Ethan, because both are still you."
He lifts his head from your chest so that he can look at you, and you see tears rolling down his cheeks "Thank you. I dont know what I'd do without you."
You wink at him "You'd perform a whole lot less Disney duets in the kitchen, that's for sure."
Ethan chuckles quietly, and you gasp.
"I did it! I genuinely thought that today would be the day I wouldnt be able to make you laugh, and I was accepting that while focussing on comforting you and giving you the support you need, but I did it!" You ramble in disbelief.
Ethan smiles warmly "You always do, and I love you for that, on top of everything else."
You grin up at him "I love you too! Now, speaking of Disney duets, how about we binge watch Disney movies and cuddle for the rest of the day? Oh, and if you arent up to singing the duets, I'll epically fail at singing both parts."
Ethan nods and rests his head back on your chest "I'll join in, but only in one song in High School Musical 3."
You raise an eyebrow "That's oddly specific, which song?"
Ethan nonchalantly replies "Right Here, Right Now."
Your confusion grows "Why that song in particular?"
Ethan lifts his head again, just so you can see his cheeky smile for a few precious seconds.

"Because Im looking at you, and my heart loves the view."