Star-Crossed in Parallel Lines

This was beyond me

I've never felt so paranoid after watching an anime, especially the anime rated number 1, Fullmetal Alchemist Brotherhood.

Finished it recently and I didn't cry at the ending, which I should have and I wish I did, but no tears were coming

I feel like I'm lost somehow, like I was suppose to find something.

This is me, I'm not a causal anime watcher who enjoys the entertainment. I watch anime to learn lessons and figure out the things I've always wanted.

I understood why it was rated number 1, but why do I feel like there were holes somehow. I'm left wanting for more because, I wasn't satisfied.

It wasn't my ordinary slice of life anime, there were near death experiences, blood shed, and tears that were held back...

I think that's why I didn't cry, because I get influenced easily. Ed and Al didn't cry, so I couldn't either, more so break down towards the ending. There was no big moment for me to cry at all imo.

I tend to try to understand even the littlest things in anime that will satisfy me, however this anime.

Fmab, every time I stare at Ed's shoulders just like Winry would, I searched for something, anything that could fill this empty hole of not understanding a thing in the anime. It didn't help.

I finished it, still yearning for more. Even though the character development as well as the story was marvellous, there's something missing for me.

I,

couldn't sympathize with anyone.

I'm not heartless for not crying at the end am I?

It infuriates me! Why!

Why couldn't I feel a strong emotion towards any of the characters?! Why do I feel so numb after watching it? Why

Is this one anime causing me so much trouble?

I guess, I'm just not use to these kinds of anime...