Louder Than Love || Chris Cornell

Bowling For Negative?

Seattle Washington, March 11 1994

"Chris... come on... you gotta get up," I say as I stand in front of the full length mirror and pull on my Type O Negative shirt. It was after noon and Chris still hadn't gotten up yet.

"Fuck..." Chris groans and puts the pillow over his head. I adjust my shirt to make sure it looked good with my black ripped leggings and my Doc Marten's. I turn back to look at him as I throw my hair up in a messy bun and he still doesn't move. He's hungover. He was out late last night with Kim and they came back here and were messing around in the studio, which is fine, just that... I told him that he was doing a MTV Headbanger's Ball special today down at the bowling alley with Rikki Rachtman but apparently that slipped his mind... or he just didn't bother to listen to me.

Selena got us tickets to see Type O Negative play tonight at the Fenix Underground. I really wanted Chris to come with me but he had to do this Headbanger's ball special. I thought maybe if we could just forget about everything for a couple of hours, maybe we could have some fun? But it's ok, going with Selena will be just as much fun. 

I sigh and make my way downstairs and head into the kitchen to pull out a glass and pour him some ice cold water, then I head back upstairs and set the water down on the table beside him. He lifts the pillow for a moment to see me set the glass down and walk back over to the mirror to finish getting ready.

"What time is it?" Chris moans groggily.

"1:00" I say adjusting my bra underneath my shirt but it wasn't fitting right so I decided to just go braless and I take it off from underneath my shirt and drop it on the chair beside the mirror.

"What time do I have to be there?" He says as he slowly sits up, his hair all messy and crazy, which was kind of cute.

"Around 6:00" I say as he takes a long drink of his water. He slowly gets up out of bed and makes his way into the bathroom and closes the door. I couldn't help but feel like I just wanted to hold him and have him hold me and for us to tell each other everything is going to be ok. But, instead I finish my make up and make my way downstairs.

West Seattle Bowl, March 11 1994

"Hey fucker... long time no see," Kim jokes as we walk into the bowling alley.

"Yea right," Chris laughs. Kim immediately hands him a beer and turns to see me.

"Hey Andi... " Kim smiles and gives me a hug.

"Hey," I smile shyly when he lets go of me. Matt and Ben we already over at one of the lanes with Rikki and just one camera guy which was actually pretty cool. It looked like it was going to be pretty chill. There weren't a lot of people here at the bowling alley either, especially for a Saturday.

"Um... I going to go and wait for Selena at the bar while you guys... do your thing," I say

"Andi... come on, hang out with us..." Kim says.

"Nah, it's ok... I don't want to get in the way," I say.

"Babe, you won't be in the way..." Chris says sweetly and takes a sip of his beer. I look up at Chris and god he looked so good. His hair was spikey but messy at the same time, he was wearing my favorite cologne of his, so fresh and clean, his eyes sparkled their blue hue and his neatly trimmed beard just made me want to touch it. Fuck I miss him so much and here is standing right in front of me and all I want is for him to... to -

"No It's alright... I'll uh... just be at the bar," I say and I turn away from him as he watches me walk away from him.

"You guys alright?" Kim asks.