𝕎𝕙𝕖𝕟 𝕝𝕚𝕗𝕖 𝕥𝕙𝕣𝕠𝕨𝕤 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕒 𝕂ℙ𝕆ℙ 𝕚𝕕𝕠𝕝(~Jungkook x Reader)

Thursday

"What the hell" I scream as my alarm clock vibrates my whole bedside table, screaming in my ear; how the hell is it morning already? And how the hell do I feel so dead when I slept early last night to be ready for today! Today! Thursday, it's fan meet day, it is finally here. "What the hell now?" I rub my eyes as my phone vibrates and confuses me as to who it could be; looking I realise it's just a text from Y/F/N telling me to have the best day ever and enjoy myself even though I have to go alone seeing as she is sick. I quickly text back a 'Thank you' and get up to shower.

I do a mental check of everything I'll need for the day; tickets, photo ID, membership card, Jungkook's letter, my bag. Okay good I think I'm ready to go eat breakfast and then get ready to leave.
Wandering to the kitchen still in a slight daze at the fact that the day has finally arrived after so long of wanting it to come and the thoughts of finally meeting my favourite band in the whole world and not only that but finally getting to meet my bias; Jungkook, finally after all these years of wanting to see him in the flesh this really going to happen. I'm going to see him, I'm going to speak to him, what if I get to hold his hand or...
My daydream lasts longer than it should as I realise I've not even noticed that the kettle boiled ages ago and I'm just staring aimlessly at the kitchen table.
Making a drink and grabbing some cereal I sit in a trance and try to imagine how the day was going to play out.

Back in my room after breakfast and staring at myself in the mirror making sure I look good, I look okay and the clothes I have on suit me and don't make me look hideous, I suddenly have a slight meltdown that this is all going to actually happen. I mean, I've written my twitter name in the letter for him and what if he goes on it to look. Oh god! I mean, I basically hold a shrine for him on my twitter page, wow, it's embarrassing really. I ram my fingers through my hair hoping to calm myself down but I think I'm making the whole thing so much worse.

Opening my twitter app and glaring at my profile page, I try and look at it the way he would if he goes on to have a look and what I see is pretty much like a fan page; maybe I shouldn't give him this letter? Should I?

I open the letter again and re read it hoping that maybe it's not quite as bad as I'm thinking and that if he did go on my twitter page, so what, it's cool that I think he's amazing right? I stare at his face in the album cover where he's going to sign; "Jungkook! Why do you cause me so much trouble? My life is a constant state of checking up your band and my life that I'm sure is a few steps from falling to bits" I sigh and wonder why I'm even going to this fan meet.
I suddenly feel stupid and don't know why I would want to do this, but nether the less I know I'm going either way.

A notification pops up on my twitter and As I go to check it, I already know what it will be; people post comments to me all the time, telling me I'm trying to get his attention and it wont work. That I'm just another boring fan he doesn't want to know about. That I be that weird fan if I ever got to meet him. I mean I don't know why they send me these things; all I ever post is photos of him that I like or things he's said before. I'm not a horrible fan and I try to promote him and make more people fall in love with him, not push them away. I mean in reality who would actually ever think they had a chance with an idol? Come on. I have an imagination but even mine doesn't stretch that far! He doesn't want all of us random little no ones when he can have anyone he wants! The thought of even having a real conversation with him isn't even on the radar.
I look back at myself in the mirror and sigh! Well, he would certainly never want me anyway.