𝕎𝕙𝕖𝕟 𝕝𝕚𝕗𝕖 𝕥𝕙𝕣𝕠𝕨𝕤 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕒 𝕂ℙ𝕆ℙ 𝕚𝕕𝕠𝕝(~Jungkook x Reader)

I have to go

I wander slowly and quietly over to the sofa where Jungkook is still sound asleep, Jimin's right, he sleeps like the dead. As I reach the sofa in front of him I take a minute just to appreciate this unbelievably surreal moment; he looks so beautiful, his face relaxed and gentle no worries anywhere in sight.

Taking a deep breath and calming myself down I kneel in front of him and being this close to him when he doesn't know I'm there is freaking me out a little. What if he's forgotten he was in my room or..

There's no time for this I need to wake him; my heart is racing and the pulse is in my throat and the Adrenalin skipping around my body is exhilarating but kinda scary. I reach my hand out slowly and hover it over his face, my fingers so close to his hair. I squeeze my eyes shut right before popping them open again and realising nothing has altered, it's not a dream, I'm not asleep; I gently move the hair from his eyes.

And that's it!

That's when my fangirl heart nearly gives in. His hair is soft and fluffy and as I push it back exposing some of his forehead I want to scream the hotel down that this is even happening.

He shuffles while my fingers are still in his hair but again, he doesn't wake; "Jungkook?" I whisper but obviously not loud enough although I don't want to give him a heart attack. I stroke through his hair once more, "Jungkook, hey" I say and then he's stirring, his eyes squeeze tight and then open slowly, blinking at the sudden light attacking his pupils. He groans and then when he really sees me he sits up and I pull my hand away quickly hoping I haven't done anything to upset him. "Sorry, sorry I..." I stutter over my words but before I can apologise any more he smiles and then his hand is grabbing my wrist pulling it back into his grasp. "Hey, shhh, stop panicking" he smiles and my heart just melts on the spot.

How did Jimin think I was actually going to be able to talk to this guy when I can never really find words.

"Jungkook, it's 07:50am and you're in my hotel room, you have to go pack, you're leaving soon" I spit it all out so quick I then regret it hoping he doesn't think I'm trying to push him away again. "Y/N.. wait, how do you know I'm leaving real soon?" He suddenly looks confused, I know that he knows he never told me what time they were leaving, in fact after we started playing the games on his phone we never talked about the situation again. "I.. Jimin told me, he... Jungkook he woke me up, if he hadn't have knocked on the door I.. we, we might still be asleep, imagine if the managers found your room empty, they'll freak, like now, so get moving" I say as I pull at his arm in an attempt to get him to stand up off the sofa but he's too strong and he pulls me onto the sofa instead and wraps an arm around my shoulder pulling me in closer. I daren't even look at him, but he grabs my jaw lightly with his other hand and forces me to look at him.

"Look at me Y/N. Please, tell me, do you want me to stop bothering you? Do you want this to end? Because if you do then fair enough but if there's even a little doubt in your mind, please, let me text you, let me call you when I'm home, we can keep in touch, we can..." he stops talking like he wanted to say something but can't. "Jungkook I.. this is so difficult" I sigh and I hate it I really do, of course I want him to want me but really?

"Look, I shouldn't.. I.. no one is allowed to know but you promise you won't tell, I'm pretty sure by now that I know you're good with secrets" he smiles and I roll my eyes with a giggle, "what?" I laugh and he hits arm playfully, "we, we're scheduled to come back here, to this country I mean. In five weeks time, it's all secret and.. let's meet up? Yeah?"

I scrape my hands through my hair and look away from him then back at him, "don't.. I.. of course I won't tell anyone, you know I won't Jungkook" I sigh but I smile.

He doesn't move and he's still impossibly close to me; "so you'll text me? I can call you?" He asks and his eyes sparkle. How can I say no?

"Yeah, just.. this is so hard Jungkook, it's.." I don't even know what to say to him. "It doesn't have to be Y/N it can be so simple. Me, you and a secret with a bit of Jimin on the side" he says rolling his eyes sarcastically until I laugh. "Jimin just saved your ass so I'd be grateful to him"

"Shouldn't you be moving, you've still got shit to pack apparently" I say shoving at him playfully, "what time is it?" He asks through a stretch. "Time for you to be going" I sigh sadly because the truth is, I don't want him to go not really.

He stands from the sofa and I feel the chill immediately as he leaves my side and my heart feels sad. There's nothing even between us not really and yet still I can't stand the thought of this being over so soon. Being trapped in this secret for the past week has been exiting and yet scary all at once but there's something amazing about that.

"Come here Y/N" Jungkook reaches a hand out to me, shaking it mid air until I reach out and take hold. He pulls me up from the sofa and wraps me into his arms, holding me tight my face pressed against his chest, the warmth is back. "Y/N... I promise this can be okay, I won't let anyone find out and more so, I won't let anyone hurt you, I promise" he says it so quietly and hushed and then he hugs me impossibly tighter. I suddenly feel him kiss my head and I want to just melt. Everything in me is alive and I can't take it all in properly.

"Jungkook... don't..." I whisper not completing what I wanted to say but he lifts my head up and kisses me and there's no hesitation this time, I kiss back and before we know we're lost in each other, I don't want this beautiful guy to leave me. I don't want him to go home, I want him to be mine as impossible as it is.

"I have to go" he says as he breaks away reluctantly and I can see it in his eyes, "okay" I answer not knowing if I can say much else. Not trusting me voice.

"I'll text you, the minute I get to the airport I promise, and you need to let me know you get home safe. Okay?" He smiles a little and again I can only respond with a small "okay"

"Y/N" that's all he says and he knows exactly what he's doing because it makes me look up at him and I feel everything I could only ever have imagined when you dream of this stuff as a fan; it's mesmerising. It's breathtaking. It's, it's more than words can do justice.

"Huumm?" I mumble swallowing down the lump in my throat; it's harder because after being a fan for years I felt like I already sort of knew him, of course I didn't. There's so much he never shows, I've only seen a tiny glimpse in the last week, I know he's so much more but I'm already in over my head and I hate it. This is what I didn't want when it all started at the fan meeting. "Trust me, when I come back, when, we're back I'll meet you and this time we know where we are no tip toeing around or... look, five weeks tops and I'll be back, will you, erh... will you have a date with me?" He looks so nervous and shy and a smile dances on my lips, the way his eyes move around not focusing on me or anything for very long, it's so endearing. "A date?" I trip over my words, mouth going dry from shock? Excitement? "Well, I mean.. of course I mean at the hotel, behind closed doors but..." I smile so hard and it finally makes him smile again. "Yes, Yes Jungkook it's a deal, now go, go pack your stuff or you won't be flying anywhere again because you'll be sacked" I giggle as I shove him to the door.

As he opens the door he glances back at me; "thanks" and I'm confused, what is he thanking me for? I must look just as puzzled when he continues, "thanks for putting up with me" he smiles then leans out the door, checking the corridor then leans back in and close to my face, he's so close I panic because I think he might be going to kiss me again and surely that's not safe whether the corridor is empty or not, he doesn't but he so close I feel his warm breath on my lips, "don't be scared to text me first, if you ever need me, text me, call me even, talk to me" he whispers and then he's gone and I think he's taken some of my heart with him.