𝕎𝕙𝕖𝕟 𝕝𝕚𝕗𝕖 𝕥𝕙𝕣𝕠𝕨𝕤 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕒 𝕂ℙ𝕆ℙ 𝕚𝕕𝕠𝕝(~Jungkook x Reader)

The art of lying

It's strange; I've not even really been with Jungkook for long enough to say 'I miss him' but yet there's a sense of some sort of loss I feel. The way I know he's not there.

Not that he was 'just there' when I was at work and he was in London but he was still closer than he is now.

Now, he's somewhere in the sky heading home, miles and miles away from me and yet even though we aren't 'anything' not really, and he's not mine to miss, I do; it's weird to think someone who I only knew a few weeks ago as a celebrity, a celebrity crush, I now know a lot differently.

I got his text earlier, letting me know they'd got to the airport and that he obviously can't use his phone in the air so he'll get in touch when he's home. That was also strange; actually receiving a text from him, okay yeah it's happened before but, different set of circumstances I guess, the way he was letting me know so that I knew he was ok, the way he's going to make sure I know he's home. There's something so endearing about it. About him.

I made it home, my first thought when I walked through the door was to sit down and try and go through things that have happened, mentally with myself just to clarify with myself that it's been real, but I'd only been sat down for five minutes and I felt immediately bad for not texting him to let him know I'm home when he wanted me to tell him, although I knew he wouldn't receive it for hours until they land at home, it played on my mind too much to not text him the time I got home, but, I mean, is he even going to care? Really?

When he's home and everything is back to normal after an hour or two is he actually seriously going to bother about me? Is he going to want to know what I'm doing? Or anything in my mundane life when his life is so exciting!

The thought of going back to work and facing Y/F/N in real life is even getting to me; not seeing Y/F/N, no that bits fine, I like seeing her, well, it is fine unless she interrogates me about the weekend. But the thought of work isn't appealing much to me after being trapped inside a strange bubble for nearly two days and living the life a fangirl would be so proud of.

I even had a look how long it'll take him to get home, well, roughly not literally step for step but a time of sorts so that I can wait for a text even though I'm pretty sure one won't come.  I'm pretty sure I shouldn't be getting me hopes so high.

*bleep bleep*

The morning alarm on my phone is enough to knock me out of bed, I don't understand how morning can have rolled around so quick, then again, surprisingly however, Jungkook did send me a text when he was home and he apologised because he remembered the time zones and said I'd probably be sleeping, which I was, it soon woke me up though, but I was grateful to receive his message; I was so certain he'd been lying to me about texting and keeping in touch but yet there he was at 3am keeping his promise. I'd only had on and off sleep since then, my fangirl heart going one hundred to the dozen at the thought that maybe, just maybe he might actually really like plain old me.

I've literally just stepped through the office building door and I've been spotted, Y/F/N running towards me happily, "Y/N, where've you been then? What's been happening?" She beams at me and I recall the lies I told her, "helping out family, I mentioned it, remember? How about you? Good weekend?" I smile and hope she doesn't see through my little white lies. "Yeah good I guess, are you sure that's all you've done? I could've sworn when you text me you were being shifty" I look at her and I don't even know what to say.

"Shifty? Don't be daft! My weekend wasn't even worth talking about" I giggle and hope it's the end of this conversation. There I go again, lying, they seem to be slipping off my tongue so easily, I must say though, there's something alluring about secrets, about the way they make you lie. It's like an act. an art. You're not really lying because it's kinda like it's not you. The thought of knowing Jungkook, texting him, calling him, god! Even kissing him and no one knowing it's thrilling. Maybe this is why Jungkook didn't want anyone to know? No, it's not, I understand why he doesn't want anyone to know; it would ruin his career and fans world wide would hate him, I'd never want that for him anyway.