𝕎𝕙𝕖𝕟 𝕝𝕚𝕗𝕖 𝕥𝕙𝕣𝕠𝕨𝕤 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕒 𝕂ℙ𝕆ℙ 𝕚𝕕𝕠𝕝(~Jungkook x Reader)

Excuse me miss

I've tossed and turned all night, trying to sleep seemed so pointless after about 4am and I didn't even get into bed until sometime around 2am; I must have picked my phone up a million and one times trying to decided whether to send a text to Y/F/N and tell her about the situation I've now found myself in. But then I talked myself out of it every time I remembered nothing had actually happened with Jungkook; maybe the thought that we were leaning towards each other and that maybe it would've led to a kiss was something I've made up in my fangirl mind and actually nothing like the thing that happened at all. I keep thinking over what Jimin said to me about the fact that Jungkook apparently cares about me, but I mean, why? Does he even know me? All this situation has come from when some horrible girl at an album signing decided to shout verbal abuse at me and call me a stalker that should be nowhere near the guy I've just been playing computer games with and in his hotel room at gone midnight. Wow it's all spiralled quite fast hasn't it.

I did eventually decide to in fact text no one. Call no one and ultimately get through the embarrassment of everything all alone and I did eventually decide to go to the awards show where they're performing in a few hours later today. I'm praying over and over again that this won't turn out to be a mistake; but Jimin after all said he wants to be friends with me even if everything with Jungkook is actually nothing, do I believe him though. Maybe I should trust Jimin a little more? Or should I? Should I try and open up to him, tell him I like Jungkook but I don't understand why Jungkook would like me! How is any of this actually happening.

The day moves quickly and all I've actually managed to achieve is overthinking my whole life into one of the deepest holes I've ever been in and ordered some food from room service so that I've at least eaten something before going out in a hour, when I say something, I mean I've picked at a sandwich, oh and I've got my outfit ready and waiting for me laid out on the bed neatly that I did early while trying to distract myself, but I'm still contemplating why I'm even bothering dressing up so much it's not like I'm going to get time to even really see the guys properly at all. Then again, Jimin asked me to go to talk to Jungkook so; what am I going to exactly say to him? Oh why didn't you tell Jin I was in your room? Oh I'm so sorry I ran off, well actually I didn't run off I was angry at the whole thing and confused and wanted to just walk away! Why did you act so surprised when I walked away? Why did you lean towards me like you was going to kiss me before Jin knocked on the door? Why do you even like me? My mind just spins and spins and even though I'm only imagining saying the things to Jungkook I'm winding myself up and I need to stop. And how could I do that to him before a performance and potentially screw it up for him, I couldn't ever do anything to jeopardise the guys, no matter what happens or where any of this goes I would never want to hurt them or upset them.

The time is here to leave for the show and I haven't had anything from Jungkook at all, no texts, no calls, no twitter messages, no coming to my hotel room, no nothing; nothing from Jimin either but then I remembered he doesn't even have my number although he hasn't been back to my room either. I walk down to reception and I'm going to have to go and ask for a taxi to take me to the show as I realise I have no idea where it is or how to get there. "Excuse me miss, hello" I turn around and find a rather tall, smart looking man smiling at me, "hello" I smile shyly and he beams back, "I'm here to collect you, Y/ N right? I'm from the company. We're off to an awards show miss, are you ready to go?" He says and I can't believe it, "oh yes thank you so much" I sigh with relief that I actually don't need to start messing around with a taxi. "This way then miss, I'll get you there safely and in time to see the guys before the show, I've been instructed to drop you backstage, let's go" I widen my eyes but hope he didn't notice. See the boys before the show! See Jungkook again already! No! "Ah, erm.. okay sir thank you" I've only just sat myself in the car and my phone goes off with a text notification; I pull my phone from my bag slowly wondering whether it's going to be a message from Jungkook.