𝕎𝕙𝕖𝕟 𝕝𝕚𝕗𝕖 𝕥𝕙𝕣𝕠𝕨𝕤 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕒 𝕂ℙ𝕆ℙ 𝕚𝕕𝕠𝕝(~Jungkook x Reader)

I'm just a fan and it's fine honestly

I successfully reach my hotel room on the total opposite side of the hotel to Jungkook's and the rest of the guys and sigh as I lean on the back of the door after shutting it; too much has happened in the last couple of hours for me to even be able to register it properly. I feel like my brain is swimming with unnecessary thoughts and that I'm drowning myself for no reason but then I have that niggling thought about why Jungkook lied to Jin about how I left the party and why he didn't tell him I was still in his room, plus why when Jungkook had shut the door was he looking like he was having a mental breakdown and not knowing what to do, which is ultimately why I left. I don't think I can get into this, it's too much and that's before I even allow myself to think too deeply about secrets and the possibility of if we did get into anything the media, the press. God! The fans; how did I not even think of that, I'm one of them myself, imagine how I would feel if I saw rumours about Jungkook dating a random girl no one knows, yeah that whole situation would be hell and imagine it for him and the whole band, nightmare.

I jump away from the door as I hear a thumping on it and then turn slowly to take a sneak peak through the spy hole, "shit" I move away from the spy hole quickly and lean back against the door again, "Y/N!" Jimin's stood tapping lightly on my hotel room door and I don't want to talk to him not now, not after just basically running away from Jungkook, why is he even here? "Y/N I know you're behind the door, just let me in... please" what the hell does he want to come in my room for? What is with these guys and not caring if anyone sees anything on these corridors. "Y/N please" I can hear the pleading in his voice and I cave; I open the door very slowly and find him just looking at me with, what is that look his face is wearing? Is it pity or, no, surely not! "Y/N" he gives me a tiny smile as I step to one side to let him in and then shut the door quickly once he's inside. "Hey, you okay?" He asks and I don't really know the answer, "yeah of course, why?" I try to give him the best smile I have but obviously it falters; "no you're not" Jimin sighs and he walks past me and perches himself on the end of my bed and I just stand watching him, "come here, come and sit down with me" he says as he opens his arms as if I'm a child needing a hug. "No I'm fine, Jimin it's okay, should you even be in here?" I ask him quickly; "what? Yeah I can be in here. So, you left the party early" he says it with a questioning tone and I don't know if he's asking me why or if he's tying to just make conversation with me, "yeah I did" that's all I say, being careful not knowing how much he knows. "You left with Jungkook" he stares at me and I start to walk over to him, I sit down next to him silently and he looks at me sideways, "Y/N Jungkook text me, before I mean, when you left the party together. I know you went to his room" he says it so calmly but my eyes widen and I don't know what do, "he did? So how come Jin came to Jungkook's room demanding to know where he'd gone and saying that he didn't know if I was okay because I just left?" I question sounding a little harsh but one or more of them is lying. Jimin looks at me and he seems a little confused; "I didn't tell anyone. About the text I mean.. I just replied to Jungkook and that's it." What is he on about? "Why? Why didn't you tell the others?" I ask quickly, "because, I didn't know if you'd want the others to know" he says and I kind of understand but still kind of don't. "Oh" that's all I reply with. "Y/N I know what just happened now, with Jin and the bit after... the walking away... are you sure you're okay?" I see his face full of concern, "how do you know?" I'm getting more confused by the minute; "Jungkook text me, he.. he wants to know you're alright because you seemed angry with him when you left" I can't believe this, "Jimin! Why? Why do you know everything anyway, what has he text you for, there's no need I'm fine thank you, you can go now" I say as I start to stand but Jimin just grabs my hand for me to sit back down beside him. "Y/N me and Jungkook.. we know everything about each other, we're close, we share secrets" he says it with his eyes full of truth, "I thought you all did, don't you?" I snap, "well yes but, no, me and Jungkook we're closer. You know, all friendship groups have certain people that are closer than others, right? I mean Hoseok and Yoongi are close too" he says and I feel the need to roll my eyes because it sounds like children in a playground, but I don't I stop myself, "right okay" I say and I don't make eye contact with him. "Y/N you have a friend you're closer with right? A friend you'd tell everything to? Like who you fancy or who you're dating?" He smiles as I glance back at him; I mean, would I tell Y/F/N about Jungkook, about this whole thing? How could I though? "Y/N" he stirs me from my thoughts that are swirling, "yeah I guess, I think" I stutter because I don't truly know. "I'm sorry, Y/N.. I care about you, you know, Jungkook cares he.." I cut him off, "what? No, Jungkook he just, look, Jimin I'm not having this conversation tonight it's late you have a show tomorrow go and sleep, I'll text him tomorrow when I get home" I say as I shuffle closer to the door hoping if I stand and hold it open for him he'll get the message but he stops me, "Y/N no what, you're not going home you'll see us tomorrow at the show, Jungkook's worried about you, he doesn't understand why you left like you did and.." he's mumbling and I can't deal with it. "Jimin if he's bothered he'd be here instead of you right now wouldn't he? Look I can't go to the show after.. it doesn't matter I can't go and I can't do this now and I can't be here, like I shouldn't have been in his room it's fine it's over, not that there was anything that started but it's done" I say as I pull my arm from his grasp, "no no please wait, I promise you he cares we all care, listen to me please, I care about you and I'm worried about you and I think I can explain why he didn't tell Jin about you in his room but at the end of the day it's not my place, it's his and he wants to see you again I promise" he blurts it all out really fast, tripping over his own words and I do feel bad but I don't know what's happening to my simple life, it's been thrown under the bus. "Yep okay Jimin I get it but I shouldn't be getting involved with you guys, I'm just a fan and it's fine honestly" I talk really quietly feeling stupid; "Y/N come to the show tomorrow.. please, see Jungkook, talk to him, try and remember, it's not easy... I mean... how can I say it? ... It's hard when different worlds collide but there's two sides to every story right? Two separate lots of feelings? I'd love to be friends with you Y/N, tell me things, share things with me, they won't leave me ever, I promise, see you tomorrow yeah?" He says it all so sincere and I feel my heart melt a little, he's so sweet, "thank you Jimin, I'll see you tomorrow, goodnight" I say with a small smile, as he reaches the door and then leaves.