memories. h.s

One

First of September, 2013
Holmes chapel, Cheshire, England
Age 11

"Why'd we have to see insidious and not something less
scarier?" I mumble to my friend seated next to me. I was sat
with my legs held up to my chest and my head pressed
against my legs to block my view of the screen ahead of us.

"I don't know it was Ellie's idea" Sofia whisper- yelled to me.
I look to see her in the same position as me.
"Let's go to the bathroom for a few" I suggest eager to get
out of that theatre due to how scary the movie was to me
at the time.

"Yeah let's go" we take our legs away from our bodies and
stand up. "Ellie we're going to the bathroom you coming?"
Sofia asks Ellie who actually seems to be doing just fine with
the scary film.

With that we quickly make our way out of the dark theatre
and out into the well lit hallway. We both let out a loud
breathe of relief knowing we're out now.

"Omg the One Direction movie" Sofia gasps. We run across
the hallway and put our ears to the theatres doors.
We move away and start dancing and singing to "I would" In
the hallway. "We should go in!" I suggest. "You think?"

Sofia stops dancing and looks to me. "Yeah, why not?"
I shrug my shoulders. "Okay yeah Ellie will alright if we're gone for a little bit" and with that said, she grabs the doors and opens it to allow us to enter.

Being afraid of getting caught, we quietly choose seats at
the lower area of the theatre. For a few minutes we watch
a bit of the movie giggling back and forth to each other
about how rebellious we felt for doing it.

Not even realising this would be one of the memories I'd
cherish and remember so fondly later in the future.

Sixth of June, 2014  
London, England
Age 12.

I couldn't believe it what I was seeing with my own eyes.
Wembley Stadium.

I had been anticipating for this day ever since I had been
gifted tickets to all three of their shows from my mum.
I had jumped up and down thanking her repeatedly for
buying them for me not knowing at the time  that it
wouldn't be years later until I would learn this was not the
truth.

"I've seen videos of them bantering with the crowd mum! I
hope they see me!" I excitedly say from the backseat.
"Maybe we'll have to see" I see her smile through the
rear view mirror.

I lean back into my seat and turn my gaze back to the busy
streets of London as we drive past. London was always a
city that fascinated me. It's where everything happens.

People from all different walks of life come here, families,
business men and women, teenagers from the surrounding
suburbs coming for a night out. I loved it and living here one
day was something that seemed only a dream.

"Lillie, we've made it to the hotel sweetie, can you get out
and help me get the suitcases out of boot please? I hear my
mums voice snapping me out of my thoughts.

"Yes mum, I'm coming" quickly unbuckling my seatbelt, I
open the car door and make my way to the back to help
her.

I scan the hotel room before me as I roll my luggage inside.
The decent sized room had two queen beds, a desk and a
small sofa in the corner.

"Oh good there's a coffeepot and refrigerator" my mum
goes around inspecting the room seeing what all there is in
it.

"What time do you want to leave at to head over the
stadium Lillie?" My mum says from the bathroom.
"Erm, around 6:30 would be good".

Arriving at the time should give me enough time to get
merch from the merch line and something to eat before
heading to our seats to see Five Seconds Of Summer come
out and open the show.

Due to this being in 2014, dressing up wasn't a thing at the time. Girls didn't come to the shows wearing pink sparkly
trousers and bralettes or tailored dresses to fit them
perfectly.

Almost everyone who was a hard core fan wore tour t shirts
so that's exactly what I wore.
That night, I danced and sang my heart out to every song
that they played. Every time I'd see Harry on the big screen,
my heart would drop. He was the older boy that I hung out
with, who taught me how to swim and who I wouldn't let
leave my side as a kid.

In 2014, I didn't know that he'd forgotten all about me. At
that time I was still holding onto hope that his memory of
me was still as sharp in his brain as was mine.

I found it hard to snap out of those deep thoughts spinning
around in my head during that night. It wasn't healthy and it
definitely wasn't the time and place to be particularly
thinking about that.

Towards the end of the show I had finally blocked all
thoughts of him out of my head as I tried to enjoy the
show. The following night I did better, I wasn't in my head the entire time and I was able to record more videos of the
show.

The third night was the greatest. Due to my Twitter fan
account I was able to enter a contest to up grade our seats
to the first row.

"Mum! Mum! mum! Where you are?" I couldn't believe what
had just happened to me considering I had never had luck
with winning any contest what so ever.
"I'm in here what is It?"

I follow her voice to the bathroom where she's applying her
makeup."I just won a free upgrade! We're gonna be in the front row tonight mum! Isn't that exciting?!" I throw my arms out to

show just was thrilled I was that we had won.
"No way" she smiles. "Yes way look!" I shove my phone in
her face and she takes it from me to get a better view so
she could read the email on my tiny iPhone screen.

"That's amazing! See what have I told you? Great things will
come your way just be patient." I smile at her wise words before running back into the room over to my suitcase to pick out which shirt I was going to
wear that night.

"On the count of three when I say go I want everyone to
throw whatever they want onto the stage. Okay? Alright,
one, two, three, GO!" As soon as Harry says go a tsunami of
random things fly onto the stage including me throwing
things as well.

"This was a terrible idea!" Harry snickers into the mic tilting his head down and running his hand through his growing brown locks.

"Okay everyone stop! Stop!"

"Okay it's your birthday? How old are you?" Harry brings his

attention to a girl's sign near where I'm standing. "I'm
turning 16!" The girl screeches before covering her mouth
with her sharpie covered hand spelling '1D'.

"And what's you name?" He asks. He's now standing
directly in front of our area.
"Sarah!" The girl screams to him so he can hear. "Sarah?"
He makes sure he got it correct. "Yes!" She clarified for him.

"Okay Sarah is turning 16 today let's all sing to her a happy birthday on the count of three one, two, three..."
The whole stadium broke out in song singing the girl a
happy birthday.

The look on her face could never be matched she was so happy hearing Harry have everyone wish her a happy birthday.

Of course all things had to come to an end and that show
that brought me so much happiness came to a end.