Part nineteen

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I've felt different lately.

Not in a bad way where I feel angrier or sadder or anything, but actually quite the opposite.

The sun sets have been seeming to be more luminous, the colors and glow contagious as they cause me to smile longer.

Before I go to bed I usually go over a list of everything I regret doing that day, wishing I did something else that would have been less of a waste of my time, making me feel this pit of frustration before closing my eyes and getting ready for the next day that would follow the same routine.

However, for the past week after Louis' usual good night text, I would go to bed satisfied, even a little excited since the next day was awaiting for me in just a few hours.

I have no idea what has been the matter with me, what has hit me, many people noticing my change of mood too.

Coop even sniffed me one day to see if I have been doing any drugs he was unaware about, this hint of confusion taking over him when he realized I was clean.

I don't understand what I'm so happy about. I mean I usually get mood swings during the time of the month, but it has already passed for about two weeks now.

I'm lost and I know Izzy keeps on telling me that I should just enjoy this damn feeling instead of questioning it, but I can't help it.

It's just one of those habits I have, questioning everything that is, but maybe she's right.

At the moment Izzy and I are sprawled together on her bed playing cards with her nurse Fifi who is sitting at the very edge with The Fault in Our Stars soundtrack playing on shuffle aloud from Izzy's Ipod.

Boom Clap is currently interrupting the sounds of the birds chirping from the window as Fifi continues tapping her fingertips suspiciously against the sides of her cards as her eyes look them over.

We always bet some kind of snack food for these very intense games of Go Fish and right now it looks like Fifi may win all of the oreos.

She already has two books and I know she's going to go fishing for my two sevens.

"Winnie, do you have any sevens?"
Fuck.

That bandit.

Izzy begins giggling when she sees me sigh from defeat.

Izzy only has one book, but at least she isn't in last place like me.

I need to get my shit together.

I nod my head finally before handing them to her, Fifi's eyes widening as well as her smile as she makes yet another book.

"You two are making this too easy!" She comments before laughing and eyeing our stashes of cookies beside us.

This is a woman with an objective.

Izzy giggles again beside me, resting her head on my shoulder as she glances at her deck.

Coop would usually assist his sister in these games, always letting her win even though many times he could've been victor, however he's with Danny for the whole day so he's sadly missing out on this game of life or death.

Izzy asks Fifi for fours and as Fifi hands her one of them with a pleasant smile on her face, I feel my phone vibrate in my pocket.

I slide it out quickly and I unlock it, seeing how it's a message from Louis.

From: Llama Tomlinson

It is just wild to see the amount of people that are surrounding this place just to see Garett.

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