S U R R E N D E R

chapter six

That was horrible. She was a horrible person. She knew that she was. How could she not care at all? Going after someone that already has someone in their life? Was her need for that so strong that she didn't care about anything else? But who was she to talk? Lisa literally let all of that to happen, even if it wasn't something big or extremely intimate it still wasn't right. She can still remember looking into those eyes and seeing them shine, those cat eyes that got her attention from the first time that she saw them. It must be a game for her, it didn't look as if she was looking for anything else other than something... Someone to play with and the night before, it was just the preview of the whole ass game. And that itself scared Lisa, how much more intense could it possibly get? Did she want to find that out? No, no, she didn't because that would be cheating. Right?

It was nothing though. Nothing happened yet it felt so good, she really knew what she had and didn't have to do to drive Lisa insane. Was it bad that one side of her was arguing with her and calling her all sorts of names, pushing her to call Jennie and make sure that it never happened again and the the other half just craved more and more? Lisa was so lost in between because even though this was wrong on so many damn levels she wanted to play along so much. The way Jennie portrayed the whole thing, it only made Lisa think about it again and again. "I'll be your secret," That's exactly what she said and that was the one thing that stuck with Lisa, the fact that she would be her secret. That alone made her think about it even more. Because not only it was hot but it also was so fucking intriguing. "I'll be your break from reality, no one has to know" Lisa thought, bringing back Jennie's voice as she dragged herself out of the bed she has been trying to sleep to for the past two hours.

There were so many things that had changed overnight in her head. It wasn't because of what happened but mostly because of the things that Jennie said that still lingered in the deepest parts of her head. God damn it Jane, get the hell out of my head. Lisa sighed and sat down, not even caring to put on make up to cover up the scene that was taking place on her neck, thinking that there was no point since she was going to be alone for the whole weekend, no one would see her and if someone did it was going to be because she chose to be seen. It annoyed her, it made her crazy to think that Jennie was sitting around confident that Lisa would be knocking on her door, accepting the invitation. The very dangerous and wrong invitation.

The most annoying and craziest thing than that? The fact that Lisa was thinking about it for real, it was the only thing that her head allowed her to think about it. Could she really be so right? Could Jennie be so right that she always got what she wanted? How could she not, anyone would crawl to be with her, the way she looked combined with the amount of a freak she was, two at the price of one, no doubt about that. But was she really going to to all the way to accept something that she knew could destroy her and her relationship with Evelyn? All of it just because Jennie promised something that sounded so damn appealing to her? Or was it the way she talked about it that made Lisa think about it seriously? Lisa jumped on her couch when she heard the door bell ring, looking at the time and getting up quickly, heading to the door and not even thinking about the huge hickeys that were laying around on her neck.

"Hello!" Jisoo's and Chaeyoung's voices filled her ears in sync, Lisa laughing when she noticed the boxes of donuts her friends had been holding as if they were going to feed a whole army or something. "Wow, donuts" Lisa laughed and grabbed one of them, heading to the kitchen and hearing the two women follow her, chit chatting behind her back, Lisa even though she didn't know what they were talking about she knew that it had something to do with her since she heard her name drop. Turning around to face them she saw both of them looking at her with a suspicious and evil smile. And then she remembered that she still had the hickeys on her neck, blushing when she brought back every small detail that she could, she could even remember the way that Jennie breathed while doing all of that, getting flustered in front of her best friends. "Someone had fun last night," Jisoo laughed and felt Chaeyoung nudge her slightly before she laughed as well.