Jennie was just standing there, in the middle of the living room while Lisa kept on pacing up and down. She couldn't really believe the fact that Jennie was the one to suggest them breaking it up, whatever they had between them. Silence was taking place and the time was passing by without any one of them realizing it. Lisa kept on looking over at the girl that was leaning now against the door with her eyes glued on the floor, her heart pounding so intensely that she was pretty much expecting it to jump out of her chest. "Jennie, can you look at me?" Lisa asked for what felt like the hundredth time in a row, the woman in front of her looking up hesitantly and locking eyes with Lisa instantly regretting it. "Are you serious?" Lisa hit her with a follow up question that made her chest ache, Lisa's voice breaking a little. Jennie didn't say anything, she just looked down again and looked at the watch around her wrist.
"You're supposed to be home" Jennie asked and all she felt was a wave of air hitting her as Lisa marched towards her, the woman stopping just an inch away before her body literally crushed Jennie. "You're pissing me off" Lisa said while gritting her teeth, her hands grabbing Jennie's sides tightly, so tight that she actually heard Jennie wince. The woman tried to break free, at least make Lisa to take her hands off of her and maybe take a step back so she could have her space to breathe. "Why would you say that? Why?" Lisa asked and she could feel her heart racing, her chest aching even more little bit little and getting worse when Jennie would not even look at her. "Is the all the fun gone for you Jen? Am I boring now that you actually have what you wanted?" Lisa asked and she literally shoved Jennie against the door, smashing her back with the wooden surface causing Jennie to look up at her with a pleading look.
"Is that why you were in Itaewon the day before? To get rid of that boredom?" Lisa asked again and this time she raised her voice practically shouting at her. Jennie didn't really know if she should be the worst person she could and say yes or if she had to actually talk like a normal person and explain things. "Stop," Jennie finally spoke up, her low voice reaching Lisa's ears, the taller woman using her hand to lift up Jennie's chin so she could look at her. "You just have to stop" Jennie repeated and her hands reached up to touch Lisa's chest trying to push her back so she could walk away and possibly breathe better. "Stop what exactly Jen?" Lisa spoke up almost immediately while keeping Jennie in place, her heart aching just by looking at what state she was. She didn't have any other choice, Jennie could kick her out right there and then, she didn't want that.
"Stop acting like you're in a fucking relationship with me, stop acting like you even care Lisa" Jennie broke down eventually, her hands now actually pushing Lisa back again and again while Lisa tried her best to stay in place. For a small person Jennie did have lots of strength, she could certainly feel it at that moment. "Stop acting like you are not here for a random hook up, we both know we chose to do this solely for the sex part." Jennie spat out, her eyes flaring up with anger as she looked into Lisa's, the taller woman feeling at the same time the way that Jennie's entire body was shaking. "You're getting married in four months, you have a fucking life out of this apartment. One you chose before I even set foot in it." Jennie explained and it only got weirder for Lisa who thought that Jennie was the source of everything that happened. But things weren't as Jennie projected them. Lisa was not forced into this, she didn't give in because Jennie kept insisting but because she was curious for herself.
"You didn't force me into this," Lisa started off and immediately heard a laughter coming from Jennie's side, her grasp on her getting stronger, more aggressive. "And trust me if I knew I was going to meet you I wouldn't be getting married now." Lisa explained without really thinking her heart dropping to her stomach when she saw the way that Jennie looked up to look at her, her entire being freezing right then. There it was again, that stupid feeling of uncertainty that was eating Lisa inside out. She knew Jennie by now. She knew her mind and her body better than she would ever expect and everything was starting to feel way different than they did some time ago. It almost felt like she wasn't driven by lust or something like that, she was more driven by the need to be around her even if they did nothing. It just feels odd, but Lisa likes odd.
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Fantasy"I have never felt s strongly about and for someone ever before in my entire life. You're my best friend, my lover, my other half, my confidant, my soulmate... whatever you want to call it... You're MY person."
