Running After The Dusk

17

Halt

It's been a week and a half since that happened.

Naging busy ako sa pag aaral at pagrereview dahil ilang weeks nalang ay exam na rin namin. Thankfully, I had to do a lot of writings kaya hindi ko masyadong naisip ang nangyari. Nothing really changed at all- Well maybe except for the fact that Vino and I aren't doing the same routine anymore. Usually kasi every morning I got good morning texts, We used to piss each other off when we have free time. But now, It feels different.

Hays, how can a person I just met suddenly played a big role in my life?

I do not know the reason why he suddenly stopped talking to me. I was so damn close to thinking that maybe he was too shy to start a conversation but I realized that thinking about the reason why he left will just make my heart ache even more.

Miggy and I don't hold any grudge against the both of them. Infact, the time that I told Miggy what happened he just simply ghosted Leiane. While me, I got a bit of a hardtime but I was able to overcome it. I am not really mad at Vino for doing thag, siguro nasaktan lang ako, knowing that his actions meant nothing. Siguro nga, I should just continue building a thick wall in my heart.

Well, there's more to life than boys. At saka di naman kami para ma heartbroken ako no!

"You okay?"

I glanced at Cyrus and flashed an assuring smile before I parked my car. Katatapos lang namin dalawang mag lunch. Miggy was absent during the morning class while Andrei has something to do kaya naman kami lang dalawa ang lumabas.

"Of course." I unbuckled my seat belt and looked at him. "Mukha ba kong hindi okay?"

"Alam mo matagal na kong may duda don e." His eyes narrowed. "Nawala lang kasi sabi ni Miggy mabait naman raw."

I gave in a bitter laugh. "Oh come on Cy, It wasn't even a big deal."

Of course it was a big deal, I just don't want to tell him what I really feel because he might pity me. Ayoko sa lahat ang kinakaawaan ako. It's better to lie about it than to look pathetic infront of other people.

I was startled when he suddenly leaned forwards causing me to raise my palm over my chest. Kumunot ang noo ko nang mas ilapit niya pa ang pagmumukha niya sakin. This was the same thing Vino used to do. Hobby ba talaga ng mga lalaki na ilapit ng ilapit ang sarili nila?

Hello? Does the word distance even exist in their dictionary?

"You son of a...." I pushed him lightly, flashing a disgusted look. Pinagpagan ko ang damit ko bago ko siya samaan ng tingin.

"Bakit lumalapit ka bigla?"

"Hoy grabe ka." Dinuro duro niya ako. "Tinitignan ko lang kung totoo ba sinasabi mo!"

He could simply ask if I was lying hindi yung lalapit pa siya. He just made me remember things that I wasn't supposed to remember.

"Do I look like I'm lying?"

I just did. But I know there's an acceptable reason why I lied. I can't imagine myself gaining sympathy towards my friends– tuwing iisipin ko na ganon ang mangyayari, pakiramdam ko mukha akong paslit na nanlilimos ng pagmamahal.

"Kaya nga tinitignan kita sa mata para icheck kung nagsisinungaling ka ba." Inayos niya ang butones ng polo niya bago tignan ang sarili sa salamin.

Umiling ako.

"Pero di nga?"

"What?" Iritado kong tanong.

"Di ka nasaktan?"