"She might not talk, but she can tell one hell of a story"
Dia doesn't talk by choice, only a few people know why. She communicates by sign language and so her friends were left with no choice but to learn the language so they can understand her.
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Dear Jonathan,
Remember when we were kids and used to watch Lion King every. single. day? Everyday for a whole month without fail we watched Lion King. And then we watched Lion King 2 everyday for a month. And then it was Lion King 1 ½.
What was wrong with us?
How did we watch the same movie over and over again and never get tired of it? I guess it's something kids do.
There was one Halloween, you were too little to remember, but you've seen the pictures. Anyway, mom dressed you as Blue from Blue's Clues and I was Magenta. Mom colored in the tips of our noses with some of her makeup. Pablo was Buzz Lightyear from Toy Story and Isaura was Woody.
When we were out trick or treating, there was this house with a bride and groom skeleton out on the driveway. Mom thought it would be the perfect picture so of course I took you over there in your stroller, and because you're my little brother I lived to terrorize you..a little. So I placed you between the skeletons and ran back to mom and you started to cry. I guess I got my karma because the next house we knocked on, Isaura and I got hair brushes. What kids want hairbrushes and what kind of people give out hairbrushes?
And then when we got older we ditched the pumpkin buckets and used pillowcases. It was good timing too because we dressed up as robbers. Remember I was wearing a black and white long-sleeved shirt, black pants, black beanie and a black mask around my eyes. You wore the same thing but your shirt was black. And we drew the money sign on the pillowcase. People thought I was the hamburglar.
Remember the last Halloween you were here? Pablo was Ricky Ricardo and Joshua was Fred Mertz. I don't know why they were talking like 1950s gangsters but alright. That was your last Halloween with us, last Thanksgiving, and last Christmas. Please don't start singing Last Christmas by Wham!
The following year was hard for everyone. There was a big party, which you obviously forgot. Lola's quinceñera. Nothing big, you know...
No, it was big. Just because Isa and I didn't want a quince, doesn't mean you get to skip out on Lola's.
God, I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I HATE YOU!!!!
I HATE YOU JONATHAN! But I love you. And I hate that I hate you because I love you so much. You were my little brother. My little baby brother. But you're not here. You're gone.
You know sometimes I think I'm cursed. I was with mom and dad the day the bridge fell. And they died. And I was there when Sokovia was in the air....and you were there.
What the hell were you doing there? You dumbass. You had to go and get yourself shot and look where it lead you.
I miss you, Jonathan. I miss how you used to put a single ice cube in your cereal. I miss how you used to get annoyed when I sang Fernando by Abba, to you. I guess that's what happens when mom and dad named us after songs. Our middle names, that is.
Pablo Daniel Castillo. Daniel by Elton John. Released in 1973.
Isaura Bernadette Castillo. Bernadette by The Four Tops. Released in 1967.
Dia Amoreena Castillo. Amoreena by Elton John. Released in 1970.
Jonathan Fernando Castillo. Fernando by ABBA. Released in 1975.
You know what else I miss? I miss your hugs. I sound like Olaf. I like warm hugs. I remember how it felt to hug you. To kiss your cheek and you would make a face of disgust. When I made that little ponytail on the top of your head.
You know a part of me can't help but hate the avengers. I know it was an accident. I know. I know. I really do know. But I can't help it. It's just how I feel. Is it wrong tho? Like my feelings of anger toward you? Is it wrong for me to be mad at you for dying so early? It's not like you decided to die but I just can't help having these feelings.
At least Isaura doesn't hold bad feelings towards the avengers. Otherwise I don't think she would send those pictures and letters to the news stations. A watchful Citizen of Earth. What the hell kind of name is that?
I still have to work my feelings out. I still have to accept something that happened three years ago. I don't want to, but if I don't then my next breakdown will be bigger and...god I don't even know what that'll look. But I'll work on it. Promise.
Pinky promise with a twist and a kiss. Cross my heart and kiss my elbow.
Dr. Lopez will be happy to see me when I go back. Haven't seen her in a while. She'll also be glad to know I'm writing as she suggested.
I told the Avengers about you, and Pietro and what happened that day. That is another letter for another day.
I miss you. I miss you so much. I have so much to tell you. And I just hope that somehow you can read these letters and maybe you can. Maybe you're a ghost just following us around and judging us. I can only hope.
Well, I guess that's it. I'm sorry I said I hate you. I don't mean it....okay, maybe I do but just this moment.
I love you Jonathan. Jonathan Fernando. We all love you and miss you.
Can you hear the drums Fernando I remember long ago another night like this In the firelight Fernando You were humming to yourself and softly strumming your guitar I could hear the distant drums And sounds of bugle calls were coming from afar...
Tell mom and dad I love them. And I miss them.
Your big sister, Dia Amoreena Castillo. I love you.
