Paranormal Hunters- CB✔️

'I Guess I Never Truly Mourned Their Death"

After a tiring day of shopping and filming I'm back in my apartment. Tonight the girls are coming round for girls night where we gossip, drink wine and pamper each other. I finish cleaning up when there's a knock at the door. I run over to open it to see Kat and Tara
"Hey" I open the door more to let them in
"Devyn said she's running late with Xepher" Kat informs me
"Ok no worries. Ok so I've got snacks, Netflix is up and we got drinks"
"Talia you know that I love you but why are you dressed like Colby?" Tara bursts out laughing
"Damn I forgot to change back into my normal clothes these pants are so comfy. Colby and I filmed a video where he bought my outfit and I bought his. Colby literally just bought me clothes he would wear"
"I mean the pants are cute but with the shirt you just look like Colby" Kat giggles
"Yeah. Let me just go put on something a little less Colby" I run into my bedroom and see my bedside lamp turned on, huh weird must have forgotten to turn it off this morning. I get changed and head back into the living room, Kat and Tara are already looking through films on nextfix
"How about we watch Mamma Mia?" Kat says
"Shouldn't we wait for the others first?"
"We're here. Kat let us in" I turn to see Xepher and Devyn in the kitchen
"Well ok then Mamma Mia it is" Devyn walks over to the couch with 3 glasses of wine. She hands one to Kat and one to Tara. Xepher hands me one and Cassie one then pours some wine for herself leaving the bottle in front of us
"Pizzas in the oven" Devyn says sitting down. I love our friendship I truly do, like they literally just make themselves at home and I love it.

For the next few hours we watch films, eat and drink, now were just lying on the couch chatting
"Guys do you believe in the paranormal?" I ask suddenly
"Yeah I think your the only one who doesn't" Tara says
"Sams decided where we're going for the series, some hotel but I don't know what hotel or where, but we're leaving in 2 days"
"Are you excited?" Devyn pours another glass of wine
"Kinda" I take the bottle from her and pour some for myself "I'm kinda scared though"
"Why?" Kat now sits up looking at me
"I guess it's just" I sigh "what if I find out it's all real"
"Isn't that the point?" Xepher looks at me confused
"Yeah but then that means my Mamá and Abuela didn't visit me or anything. Like why?"
"Maybe they didn't want to upset you or scare you" Cassie puts her hand on my knee
"But what if there's another reason. You know Dillon my ex used to tell me that they would be disappointed in me for going down the social media rout. What if he was right"
"Ok I think we've had enough wine" Devyn takes the glass out my hand and puts it on the table
"You wanna hear a story Sam told me once" I look at Kat confused but nod my head "he said it was just before you moved to LA. You had run upstairs for something leaving him, Colby, your Mamá and Abuela in the living room. Your Abuela asked if you were still dating Dillon and of course the boys said yes but your Mamá said 'I'll be damned if she marries that boy. He's nothing but a liar. You make sure your there for her when he breaks her heart. Make sure she carries on doing what she loves whatever that is and I'll see you Colby down that alter when I give her away, they both knew you'd end up with Colby and they didn't care what you were doing in life as long as you were happy. Now come here" Kat pulls me in for a hug
"Thank you Kat"
"Always" we carry on gossiping as we start to become increasingly more sober as the evening goes on.

I stay on my phone as all the girls fall asleep. It's just Tara and I awake now as I can't sleep. All I can think about is that song. Why is it stuck in my head all of a sudden? I begin to hum the tune without realising
"What's that tune from? I've heard Sam and Colby humming it before" she asks
"It's a lullaby they sing in Spain to get girls to sleep. My mamá and abuela used to sing it to me and Colby when we were little, of course Colby has no idea that the song is about a baby girl going to sleep. Mamá would sing it around the house as I grew up and Sam would hear her singing or humming when he came over. I haven't thought about the song in such a long time. I don't know why I've suddenly started thinking of it. I've been thinking about the song for a couple of weeks. Since talking about the paranormal again actually, but I've also been taking about the accident quite a bit. I guess I never truly mourned their death"
"Everyone deals with it differently. You kinda shut that part of your life out but now your talking about it which is good. I know I didn't know you when it happened but when I met you you never talked about them I only knew because Colby told me never to ask about family to you, but your opening up which is so good. Maybe that's why they didn't visit because, and don't shout, but maybe they thought you gave up on them"
"I gave up on a lot of things Tara, but maybe your right"
"Ok now let's get some sleep" I settle back down. It felt good talking about that to Tara. Who knows maybe this series will do me some good.