Random Male reader Oneshots

Depressed self-harming reader X Eto Yoshimura

This story is actually a tribute to a Tokyo ghoul fanfiction (Great series by the way) that I once read called "Just wanted to be loved' by @PersonaParty who for whatever reason removed it, well I enjoyed it and so I'm going to try and summarize everything that I had read from it all into a single Oneshot, and PersonaParty if you're seeing this, I really hope you republish the story.

Now since the original story is down and I only have my own memory as a reference there will be some differences and improvised parts but I want to keep things as accurate as possible.

And with this, I hope you all enjoy it.

(Y/n)'s POV

Hello there, my name is (Y/n) (L/n) and right now I'm wondering what to do with my life, you see My parents died when I was 13 which had already messed me up pretty bad, but for some reason, it seemed like the entire world had gone out of its way to make my life as miserable as possible, I'm 17 now but my life still sucks.

Apart from losing my parents, I'm also bullied on a daily basis at my high school which has led me to start inflicting harm on myself but that doesn't matter...nothing does anymore.

Right now I was just lying down on a dusty old couch reading to pass the time, you see I live by myself in a run-down apartment complex, the air conditioner is always broken and the place isn't the best but at least it's cheap enough for me to afford it with my part-time job but still, my life is just one struggle after another.

The only thing that really keeps me going is books, whenever I was reading it felt like I could enter entirely other worlds dreamt of by others, worlds where I wasn't being harassed and bullied on a daily basis, of course, my favorite author of all time was Sen Takatsuki, I don't know what it was but her works just really speak out to me, especially the Black goat's egg, that one was my favorite.

In fact, tomorrow afterschool Sen Takatsuki is supposed to be doing a book signing and I would just love the opportunity to get to meet her in person.

I put in my bookmark before closing my book and setting it on the desk by the couch, I let out a yawn as I began to make my way to bed.

(Y/n): Alright, go to sleep, get through the school day, and hopefully make it to Sen Takatsuki's Book signing on time...sounds easy enough.

After a while, I finally made it to my bed, the mattress was kind of stand but I didn't have the money to get a new one, I just laid down and got ready to go to sleep and hopefully meet my favorite author.

(Y/n): Maybe...things will start looking up for me (I said before closing my eyes)

But of course...fate has a pretty funny way of messing with you just when things seem to be going your way.

Timeskip to the next day

(Y/n): FUCK FUCK FUCK! (I screamed as I ran through crowds of people)

Right now I was now rushing because apparently my school bully Haru decided that since this book signing was so important to me he took it upon himself to lock me in one of the classrooms so that I would miss it, and because it was after school and everyone had pretty much ran all the way back home I had to escape by climbing out the classroom window (Which was on the second story) thankfully I didn't break anything but now I was late by 2 minutes.

(Y/n): (Please still be there! please still be there! this means so much to me!)

I turned the corner to where Sen was supposed to be doing her book signing, I looked towards the street with hopeful eyes...only for that hope to be crushed instantly.