I Only Ever Go In One Direction (Harry Styles) *FINISHED*

My one and only - Chapter 32

HARRY'S POV

I held her hand tightly, watching her heart monitor beep. Watching her take in breathes, slowly and carefully. I heard low murmuring on the other side of the door. It sounded angry. I just tried to ignore it and just watched it. It had been almost 4 days since she was hit, Simon postponed all our tour dates in the next week, not angry at all. I heard feet shuffling feet and someone whisper a threat, then she moved her head. I stood up and watched her. She moved her head to the other side and i gripped her hand tightly and leaned by her face.

"Sam?" She didn't move after that. I sighed and rubbed my face. I hadn't eaten anything, hardly slept, and i had only showered once. Against my will. The door opened and the doctor walked in, Louis and Liam behind him, angry and sad look's on their face's. I didn't let go of her hand, but gripped it tighter. The doctor moved to my side and looked down at Sam. Louis walked to her other side while Liam walked to my right. I glanced at him but then turned back to the doctor. He sighed and i gripped her hand tighter. Was something wrong with her, had something else happened that they hadn't see before, was she going to die. I couldn't think that way. I couldn't, i couldn't even bare the thought of her being torn from my life in only a couple minutes. The doctor put her hand on my shoulder, i just watched his face. He sighed.

"Could i talk too you," I didn't move but nodded. He looked at me and sighed, realizing i wasn't going to leave her side. He looked down at the clip board in his hand,

"Doc, don't, he's under enough stress," I looked over at Lou. He didn't look at me, but he glared at the doctor. Liam looked at him,

"He should know Lou," Louis glared at Liam and shook his head sharply. The doctor sighed and turned to me.

"Do you want to know what im going to tell you?"

"That's not fair, he doesn't even know, he never knew!" I frowned them staring at the doctor and nodded.

"I do," Louis grunted and hit the wall with his fist and walked out of the room. Liam put his hand on my shoulder, like he was trying to hold me up, or back, i didn't know, or understand why. I glanced at him and looked back at the doctor. He put his clip board down and cupped his hand in front of himself and looked at me very seriously.

"It seem's, that Sam, had been 1 month pregnant," I felt my knees go weak under me and Liam kept me standing. Now i understood why he had put his hand on my shoulder like that. I stared at him then looked back at Sam. She just layed there, sleeping soundly, like she had for the past 4 days. I looked back at the doctor and shook my head.

"No, she couldn't have been, there was no sign's," He patted my shoulder.

"Not everyone gets craving's or things like that, and it was only a month, she wouldn't be showing much," I looked back at her and then back at the doctor, frowning.

"What do you she WAS?" I asked. The doctor sighed and rubbed his face.

"It seems when she got hit, she hit her abdomen very hard, were the baby rest's, and the baby was cut from the umbilical  cord, and also hit it's head very hard, making the brain bleed," I felt my knees give way again and Liam caught me and sat me down. I looked at Sam. Why hadn't she told me? I looked at the doctor.

"Why didn't she tell me?"

"She probably didn't know, from what you said she had no cravings, or anything, she probably didn't know," I realized i had let go of her hand and i gripped it tightly and felt the tears fill my eyes, i didn't say anything to them. Liam patted my shoulder as the doctor.

"Im sorry mate," I nodded and just stared at her face. We would have been parents, and she didn't even know. We both hadn't known. Until it was too late. I rested my head on her hand and closed my eyes tightly, letting the tears fall. Had they taken the baby out of her? Did it look like her, or me, or was it a mix. I looked up at her. It would probably have her beautiful blue eyes. Curly blonde hair. A sweet smile and adorable laugh. I wiped my face and took some deep breathe's.


SAM'S POV

I heard what the doctor said. But i wasn't able to say anything, or move, or anything, i was frozen, my mind didn't want to wake up, but i felt my heart slowly break. I had been pregnant and i hadn't known! How had i not known i was month pregnant. I hadn't even realized my period was late. I felt the tears form but knew they wouldn't fall. Unless i forced my mind awake. But i knew i couldn't. I felt stuck in time. Frozen. I couldn't move. Once in a while i was able to move my hand or my head, but i couldn't open my eyes. And i didn't want too right now. I didn't want Harry to question me, or bring it up, i couldn't bare the thought that we had lost a baby we didn't even know we had. My heart kept breaking as i felt him tighten his grip on my hand, and heard him cry silently. I wanted to cry with me, but couldn't. I HATED this. I felt him rest his head on my hand and i felt my heart crack and fall into pieces. I thought of how it would have looked. More like him then me, brown curly hair. Dimples, the cutest smile that would make the girls swoon. Beautiful green eyes that made girls drool. I don't know why, but i imagined a boy. Looking just like his father. And my heart ached for the little baby that had died without me even knowing. I heard Harry take in a breath and sit back and i relaxed a little until he spoke,

"I know you didn't know, but i wish we had known, or i would have made sure you stayed safe," He whispered, his voice breaking. I wanted to cry out and let the tears fall for the unborn child, for his sorrow and mine. I couldn't bare being like this, frozen. Un able to move. He didn't say anything after that and i feel asleep soon.

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i hear shuffling feet and whispering. I didn't feel Harry's hand holding mine and freaked out. Were was he. I wanted to open my eyes so badly. But they just wouldn't. I felt rage at myself for not trying when the shuffling and murmuring stopped. I listened and realized my heart beat hard speed up with my fury and got excited. I tried harder, trying to open my eyes, to move, to let whoever was there, know i was awake but i couldn't open my eyes. I felt my mind wake up and realize what was going on. I heard someone run out of the room and more feet walk around me. My fingers twitched and i moved my head to the side. My heart speed up and i wanted to smile. I was waking up, finally. I heard someone talking quickly as they walked into the room. Then everything went quiet. I yelled at myself. COME ON, WAKE UP, FOR HARRY, FOR THE GIRLS, FOR YOUR FANS AND FRIENDS AND NEWLY MADE FAMILY, WAKE UP, TELL HIM YOU LOVE HIM, TELL HIM YOU DIDN'T KNOW, TELL HIM EVERYTHING YOU HAVE ALWAYS WANTED TO TELL HIM, WAKE UP, LOOK AT HIS FACE, SEE HIM SMILE, HEAR HIM LAUGH AND FELL HIM HOLD YOU TIGHTLY, WAKE UP, WAKE UP WAKE UP..WAKE UP....WAKE UP........WAKE UP..............WAKE U.......WAKE.......WAK............WA..............W... The yelling got quieter as my mind woke up even more and i moved my hand even move, and moved my head again. I heard someone gasp and move closer to my side. Someone gripped my hand and i knew it was Harry. And willed myself to open my eyes even more. Then they gave way. My eyes fluttered open and the blind blinded me. I frowned and closed my eyes, trying to get use to the light. When they got use to it i looked around me. Casey, Sara, Lilli and Diana stood at the end of the bed, crying and smiling. I looked to my right and saw Louis, Liam and Niall. Louis smiled and waved at me, smiled back and looked to my other side. I saw Zayn first, he smiled at me and then i looked beside him. Harry looked at me. A look in his eye saying he couldn't believe i was awake. Then Zayn moved from my side of the bed and Harry moved up. He looked at me. I smiled at him and he smiled back, glee in his eyes.

"Hey," He whispered.

"Hey," I said back, my voice sounding harsh. i frowned and brought my hand up and rubbed my throat. He handed me a cup of water and i sipped it. Then turned back to him. He smiled again.

"It's so good to see those eyes again," I smiled.

"right back at yah," He smiled and kissed my forehead.

"I love you," I whispered. Feeling the tears fill my eyes, remembering yesterday and what the doctor said. He wiped my eyes and smiled slightly. 

"Love you too," I was awake. I looked at Harry, i could see the sadness in his eyes and felt my heart break, we're going to work on it together, i know we will.



AWWWWWWWWWWW WHAT DO YOU THINK IS GOING TO HAPPEN? SOMETHING GOOD OR BAD, WILL HARRY ACCUSED SAM OF NOT TELLING HIM OR WILL HE NEVER BRING IT UP?? COMMENT THANKS