I Only Ever Go In One Direction (Harry Styles) *FINISHED*

I cant breathe without you - Chapter 15

Chapter 15...

He killed me. I sat on the couch in my apartment, staring up at him. I could see the sorrow behind his eyes. The tears welled up in my eyes.

"Your leaving for your tour tomorrow?" I asked. He nodded and kneeled down and gripped my hands. 

"Yes, and i want to take you with me, i would do anything to have you with me, but they wont let me," He said, looking me right in the eyes. I could see he was telling the truth. I kneeled down with him and looked him in the eyes. I cuped his face with my hand.

"I get it, i mean, we knew it was going to be hard right," He nodded. I remebered the pictures i saw the last time he had left and my heart stunck to my stomach. I made him look me in the eyes as i told him this.

"Just please, dont forget about me," He looked shocked.

"How could i ever forget about you," I looked down at the ground.

"You did last time," I mummbled. He sat back on his butt and sighed. I opened my eyes. He had closed his eyes. I pushed him down onto the ground and climbed ontop of him. Resting my hands on his chest i looked him in the eyes.

"Promise," I said. He looked back at me. His green eyes sparkling and i couldnt help but get lost in them. He smiled at me and moved hair from my face.

"Promise," I smiled and kissed him lightly. He kissed me back and ran his fingers through my hair. I rested my head on his and closed my eyes.

"I'm going to miss you," I whispered. He kissed me again and cupped my face in his hands and looked me in they eyes. He didnt say anything but i saw everything in his eyes. That he truly loved me, that he would always love me, that he was going to miss me. more then i would miss him. I brushed my finger down his cheek and rested my head on his chest. I felt his chest rise and fall with every breathe and i closed my eyes, listening to his heart beat. I was going to die tomorrow, but i would have to do it. He had to go. I was going to be fine. I got up and walked into the bathroom. The brown hair dye on the counter.

"Im coloring my hair," I called. Harry appeared and looked at me.

"Why?"

"So i have something different and maybe people wont recognize me as much," He frowned at me and sighed.

"Ok yeah thats good, but im going to miss this hair," He siad walking up behind me and grabbing a piece of hair. I smiled at him through the mirror.

"It'll come back, in a little while,"

"A little while is to long," I smiled and he left the bathroom and i took out the color. After it was done i blow dryed it and looked at myself in the mirror. I didnt look to bad with brown hair. I moved my head from side to side, looking at myself. Harry opened the door and looked at me.

"Ok, you dont look half bad," I smiled and turned to him.

"You really think so," He nodded and wrapped his arms around my wasit and wrapped a piece of hair around his finger.

"Yeah, i do," I smiled and cupped his face in my hands and kissed him.

I was tomorrow. Or today i guess. I rolled over and found the bed beside me empty. I got up and looked around. Harry smiled at me as he walked out of the bathroom.

"Its going to take some getting uset to," I frowned then realized what he was talking about and smiled, moving my hair back and forth. He laughed and grabbed his suitcase from beside the door. I felt my heart fall as i climbed out of bed and got dressed and put my hair up in a pony tail and followed him out of the apartment. We climbed in the car and started driving to the airport. Once there he did what he ahd to do and we walked to the seating area. All the other boys were there too. They all looked up and waved. I smiled and sat down beside him. I rested my head on his shoulder and closed my eyes, wishing when i opened them, this would just be a bad dream. Soon Harry shook my shoulder and i looked up. He looked upset. and i felt my heart break a million times over. I stood up as he started walking towards the gate. He turned to me as tears welled up in my eyes. He put his carrry on down and ran over to me, wrapping his arms around my waist and twirling me around. HE set me down and looked me in the eyes.

"I love you Sam, and im going to come back for you, no matter what," I smiled as tears willed up in my eyes. He kissed me, putting all his passion and love into it. I kissed him back and felt tears fall down my cheeks as he tightened his arms around me. I wrapped my arms around his neck. Not wanting to pull away, cause if i let go, he would leave. I kept my arms around him as he pulled back and rested his head on mine. I closed my eyes and felt him kiss the edge of my nose. I let more tears fall as i felt his fingers get tangled in my hair. I looked at him and kissed him again, running my fingers through his hair. He pulled back and hugged me tightly to me,

"I'll come back," I sighed and nodded. He pulled back and wiped the tears from my eyes and moved hair from my face. He looked away as i saw tears form and walked back over to his carry on and pick it up. Walking to the gate. I wrapped my arms around myself as he walked to the opening. He turned back to me and blew me a kiss. I acted like i caught it and he smiled slightly and disapreard. I closed my eyes and walked to the window and looked at there plane. PUtting my hand on the window. HOping he would see me.

HARRY'S POV.

I walked onto the plane and sat down. leaning my head back as the last image of her flew through my mind. Her tear stricked face. The pain and sorrow of me leaving. I put my carry on between my legs and turned to the window and sat up. She was standing by the window. I could see her red eyes faintly, and saw her put her hand on the window. I put my hand on my window and kept my eyes on her, the plane started to move away from the window but i didnt move. I wouldnt move till i couldnt see her anymore. I could see her wrap her other arm around herself and the plane started to run down the track and i lost sight of her. I sat back in my seat and closed my eyes. The boys didnt need to see me cry. I brought ym hoodie up and covered my face. I wanted her in my arms right now. I could do anything to have her in my arms right now. I brought my knees up to my chest and closed my eyes tighter. Willing sleep to come, but i couldnt get the image of her cryig out of my head. so i ended up not sleeping at all. Pain to much for sleep to overcome.