I Only Ever Go In One Direction (Harry Styles) *FINISHED*

Chapter 45 4/9 - Really Gone

SAMS POV

The door burst open and running footsteps surrounded me. Someone grabbed my arms and brought me up. I didn't look to see who it was, I didn't take my eyes away from his face. The person tried to move me from the room, but i planted my feet. They didn't try again. They were pumping his chest and checking the wires. My one hand flew to my mouth and my other hand flew to my stomach. This couldn't be happening. After a couple minutes the doctor sighed and shook his head. I didn't understand what was going on. They started to take the wires off him and they brought the blanket up and covered his head. I let out a cry and feel back to my knees. Someone slipped their arms under me and picked me up. They put my head on their chest and walked out of the room. I closed my eyes and shook my head.

"No, no, Harry, Harry!" I whispered. Tears pooling down my face.

"ssshh, it's OK  its going to be OK " I knew who was caring me now. Louis. I could hear the sob in his throat. The pain in my chest grew  and the tears came heavier. I felt the cold night air on my arms as we left the hospital. I didn't think. I didn't feel. I just layed limp in Louis's arms as i bopped back and forth as he walked to the car. I could hear sobbing and mumbling  slow and depressed feet walking along the pavement. Someone gripped my hand tightly in theirs and rubbed their thumb along it, like he would have. I opened my eyes. Was he OK  But i saw Niall. His eyes were red and swollen already and my heart broke again, he was really gone, this was happening. My hand rested lightly on my stomach and my heart slowly started to fall away and the thought that he would never met her. That she would never know her father. That he would never be here, that we would never be together forever. That i was going to go through life from now on without him, that his fans would no longer have him. His bands mates would never have him around anymore. His family would always have an empty seat at the table. That there will be no more Harry solo's. No more cat rumors. No more this, no more that. I bit my bottom lip. The pain was to great to think about anything else BUT the pain. It was radiating through my chest, down to my stomach, through my legs and arms, i was weak, i couldn't think, i couldn't move. everything seemed so slow and unreal and horrible. I didn't want to live anymore. I didn't want to be here, right now, in the cold night air, being carried back to the car by my best friend. I wanted to be safe at home. IN bed, knowing i would wake up and still have Harry there with me. But i knew i wouldn't. I knew i would be living a life full of lies, full of false hopes and unreal dreams. I wasn't even sure i wanted to sing anymore. I didn't want to record anymore, i didn't want to perform live anymore, i didn't want to win awards anymore, i didn't want to go to photo shots  or sign autographs, or take pictures with fans anymore, because he wouldn't be able too. This all flew by in my mind as Louis carried me across the pavement back to the car. The tears wet and heavy on my cheeks. Niall's thumb still rubbing my hand. The sound of sobbing and slowly shuffling feet. I didn't want this. I didn't sign up for this. I wanted my old life back. Why had i met him. I would never be feeling this way. If i had never met him, if i had never seen him, never looked him up, never went on a date with him, never decided to sign up for the X Factor, if i had done none of this, i wouldn't be here now. I would be sleeping in my own place. Still going to college and working a normal job. If he had never walked into the coffee shop, i would never have been here.....and i would never have fallen totally in love with him, i wouldn't have been with the sweetest guy in the world, i wouldn't have felt my stomach turn whenever he looked or smiled at me. I wouldn't have blushed every time he told me i looked beautiful, i wouldn't have moved into a house with him, i wouldn't have said yes to his proposal, i wouldn't have gotten pregnant, i wouldn't have meet these other 4 amazing boys. I wouldn't have tried out for X Factor. I wouldn't have met my girls  i wouldn't have had him in my life. I wouldn't have fallen in love, and i don't and couldn't imagine a life without him, and now i would be living it. The last piece of my heart broke off and feel to the bottom of my stomach and the tears didn't stop. He was gone. He was gone. I let out a sob and clutched at Louis's top. Letting out another loud cry.

"NO!" Niall rubbed my hand harder.

"Sh, it's going to be OK,"

I KNOW IT'S SAD, BUT PLEASE KEEP READING, IT TURNS GOOD, I PROMISE, YOU'LL BE HAPPY WITH THE ENDING, AND IM SORRY IF UR CRYING, BUT THIS IS ONLY THE SAD PART, KEEP READING, NO MATTER WHO SAD IT GETS, :) PLEASE AND THANKS ONLY  4 MORE PARTS TO GO :)