I Only Ever Go In One Direction (Harry Styles) *FINISHED*

She's not Afraid - Chapter 10

Chapter 10...

I pakced ym stuff up after work. Danni was worried about me. She said i was frowning to much and looked to depressed. I told her i was fine and it was just hormones, but the truth was, i WAS depressed. I had been ever since i had seen those pictures. He had broken my heart. And the stupid thing was, i still loved him. I sighed and dragged my bag into my car and plugged my ipod into my car and put on Rock Me. Yeah, he had broken my heart, but i still loved thier music. I tapped my figner along with the beat and sang along quietly. I had hardly been singing also. I hadnt sung as much as i uset to. I dropped out of choir. She's Not Afriad came on and i smiled and my feet moved, i loved this song, i always wanted to dance to it, i let go and let my voice sing along with them, filling my car. My fingers tapping on my wheel. I pulled up infront of my apartment and put my earphones in and blasted the same song. I opened my apartment door and threw my bed and layed down and looked at the ceiling, listneing to the song,the chours came up and i coudnt help it, i gpt up and danced. Singing along, not afraid of who heard me. I calpped my hands along and sung as loud as i could. letting my feet move to the music. My phone vibrated and i picked it up. Harry. I froze and threw it back onto my bed, ignoring the text. Soon the song ended and i put Rock me back on. I layed down on my bed and closed my eyes and let his voice lull me to sleep.

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The sun beamed into my room. i opened my eyes and say i was still listneing to my ipod. I turned it off and got up and went and made myself a cup of coffee and sat down at the table and looked over my text books. The test was in 3 weeks. I had to study hard, i needed to pass it. It was around 1 when i finally got up and went and had a shower and put on black skinnys, a grey beanie and a white tank top. Letting my hair down to dry. it was going to be wavy and look like amess but i really didnt care, i wasnt going any where. I put on some mascara and cover up and slipped my slippers on and grabbed my books and moved to my living room and turned the TV on and set the volume on low. my phone vibrated and i picked it up. Carrie.

Hey, wanna go have some fun tonight? 

i sighed, she had been trying to get me out of the house since he had left. And i hadnt gone. I didnt want to go anywhere, because when i did, people recognnised me as the girl who had been out with Harry Styles, and it drove me nuts.

Carrie, i dont know,

Your going! :)

I sighed and shook my head.

what makes you think that?

cause im outside your door right now, with Ashley and Krystin to make sure you come with us,

I got up and walked to my door. They all stood there smiling. I couldnt help but smile back. Krystin wrapped her arms around me and laughed lightly.

"Its so good to see that smile again," I smiled and hugged her back. I hadnt realized how much i had missed them all. Carrie patted my back.

"You look ready to go out, beside's the shoes," I looked down at my slippers. She disapeared into my room and came back with a pair of black flats. I sighed and slipped them on and grabbed my bag.

"Why not, i guess i need to get out," They all cheered and we headed out. I didnt know where they where takeing me. Soon we pulled up infront of a club and i climbed out. Carrie wrapped her arm around me and pushed me towards the door.

"It'll be so much fun, come on," I shook my head and headed in.

HARRY'S P.O.V

We pulled up infront fo the club. I didnt want to be here, i wanted to go to her apartment, we clibmed out and i looked around. The froze. Walking into the club, her hair down under a beanie. Black skinnies and a white tank top and black flats. her smile making me recognize her right away. Niall patted my back and they all laughed and headed into the club. Zayn looked back at me,

"I bet you want to be here now," I smiled and ran after them and we walked into the club. She was at a table with 3 other girls. I wanted to walk over right then, and was about to when Louis stopped me. I looked at him.

"She probably saw the pictures Hazza," I stopped in my tracks. And she probably didnt want to talk to me anymore. I walked to the bar and got a drink with Liam. I dont know how long it was but soon one of our songs came on, She's Not Afriad. I heard some cheering. Someone was yelling at some else to dance. I turned and saw that it was one of the girls Sam was with. Trying to get her to dance. She sighed and got up and took her beanie off. People started to cheer. She looked back at her friend and pointed at her. She laughed and Sam walked to the middle of the dance floor and waited for the chours to come back on, and when it did she broke out dancing. Clapping her hands and moving her hips from side to side, smiling and singing along. her voice caring over the club. She hoped up on a table and danced on it, bending down and hitting the table. Then jumped off it and started dancing on the floor again. I smiled as i watched her. I clapped my hands along as i heard her voice singing along. I heard her laugh and smield wider. She wasnt alone on the dacne floor anymore. The song ended and she raised her hands in the air and cheered. Then Rock Me came on. She callped along and sung as loud as she could. She didnt stay on the floor long. She looked tired. Now that i looked at her closer. She walked to the other side of the bar and got a drink and headed outside to cool off as the chours came on. I looked around me. The boys where to busy to notice me leave. I headed outside and looked around for her. She was standing on the patio of the club. I walked over and leaned against the railing.

"Hey," I siad. She turned and i saw the Joy and excitement, then the pain. She turned away from me and was about to head back into the club when i grabbed her arm. She glared up at me.

"Leave me alone," She snapped. That hurt. But i didnt let go. She tryed getting out of my grasp. She made her look at me. I cupped her face in my hands. She looked up at me and i could see the tears in her eyes.

"I'm sorry," I siad. And i was. for everything, for ignoring her, making it so fake pictures where taken of me, making her hurt, making her feel pain. She shook her head and got out of my grasp.

"Why would you be sorry, i was the one who believe in a lie," She mumbled. I grabbed her hand and intertwined my fingers with hers and she lookd up at me.

"None of that was me, the picutres, the ignoring you, the acting like you never existed, it wasnt me," She shook her head and tryed to move away. I cupped her face in my hands again and looked her in the eyes. I saw the tears well over and i wiped them away.

"Samantha Golding, you dont know what you have done to my heart, from the first moment i meet you, i was taken," She just stared at me and i stared back. She didnt pull away, she didnt try to move away, she just stayed there. Our eyes locked. I had missed her so much, and i hadnt realized how much till right now. ON the patio outside the club, the music blaring from inside and the cold air wrapping around us. I leaned forward and kissed her softly. I pulled back and looked at her. She looked back and whispered the words i had wanted to hear for so long,

"I love you Harry,"