Stay For Me

02 | different places

❝ 𝑰 𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘 𝒚𝒐𝒖'𝒓𝒆 𝒔𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒘𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆
𝒔𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒘𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒇𝒂𝒓 𝒂𝒘𝒂𝒚,
𝑰 𝒘𝒂𝒏𝒕 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒃𝒂𝒄𝒌, 𝑰 𝒘𝒂𝒏𝒕 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒃𝒂𝒄𝒌,
𝒎𝒚 𝒏𝒆𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒃𝒐𝒓𝒔 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒌 𝑰'𝒎 𝒄𝒓𝒂𝒛𝒚
𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒚 𝒅𝒐𝒏'𝒕 𝒖𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒓𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒏𝒅,
𝒚𝒐𝒖'𝒓𝒆 𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝑰 𝒉𝒂𝒅, 𝒚𝒐𝒖'𝒓𝒆 𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝑰 𝒉𝒂𝒅 ❞

𝑩𝒓𝒖𝒏𝒐 𝑴𝒂𝒓𝒔

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AN: If you haven't already, please read my updated authors note in the previous chapter, it's very important - thank you.

T H E A

Myla and Jacey left about an hour ago and since then, I've managed to climb back into bed and binge watch every episode of Bridgerton and fall in love with the Duke of freaking Hastings even more than I did the first time.

I really shouldn't be sitting here watching romantic tv shows but honestly, Freddy Krueger just wasn't doing it for me today.

Not hearing from Rio has probably been the worst part about this whole ordeal. The fact that he can't even return my texts or calls, or even just send me a text explaining that he doesn't want anything to do with me anymore.

Except I get nothing, absolutely nothing.

How am I supposed to just move on with that? Will he come back? Do I make new friends? What if I just move away and start over? Am I supposed to do that?

I didn't realise how much I had fallen for Rio until he was no longer around, and I had to come to the realisation that he left me.

He just let me go and walked away from me even when I was begging him to wait. All I wanted him to do was wait for me.. but he wouldn't.

Now all I wish he would've done was stay.

I don't know why he left town. No one seems to really know.

We're both in completely different places and honestly, I think that breaks my heart the most.

And you know what, the worst part about being sad is that you don't even know what makes you happy anymore.

I 'celebrated' my twentieth birthday in my room, crying by myself. We had just got back to New Orleans the previous week and I realised that Rio had gone.

I refused any visitors and didn't even speak to my family, apart from when they wished me a happy birthday that morning.

It's Rio's birthday today. He's twenty-three.

June 15th was the day Rio came into this world and November 7th was the day he left mine.

Everyone keeps telling me that I'll be fine. That I'll get over it. How though? How am I supposed to get over someone who was never mine to get over in the first place?

I know I need to pick myself up. I know I need to move on. I know that I have to just continue with my life.. but it's painful. It's so unimaginably painful.