Tattoos and Scars | Rewritten Version

Chapter 49 || Bleeding

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I refused to look up. I felt safe with my face buried between my arms. No one could see how bad I was hurt. Even when Kaden was right in front of me.

"Bailey, fuck... you're bleeding. Let's get you home."

"I h-have no h-home," I cry. "I never had one." Adrian was my home, and now I was kicked out. It's safe to say that I'm homeless.

"Princess, please, you're bleeding like hell," Kaden says softly.

"Why would you care?" I snap. "Why would you care, Kaden? You're friends with me because you want to get to Adrian through me. You want your other half of your gang back," Anger boils through me. No one's ever wanted something to do with me if it wasn't for their selfish needs.

He runs a hand through his golden blonde hair. "Bailey, that's not how it is anymore."

"Then how is it?!" I growl. I felt angry and I was taking it out on Kaden. I didn't care. He deserved it for trying to use me.

"I genuinely care for you. At first I didn't. I didn't give a shit if you got run over by a car, but you've earned my respect over the months. I can't see you bleeding and hurting like this anymore."

"All men do is lie."

"I'm not lying."

"I'm not in a state to believe you right now," I reply bitterly. If someone like Adrian can lie to me, then Kaden is even worse of a liar than him. I don't want to trust anything anymore. Once again, I feel tears well in my eyes, before I begin to bawl.

"Hey, no, don't cry," Kaden tries. That's what Adrian would say! I begin to cry harder. "I'll help you get an ex-girlfriend-glow-up! Adrian will be sorry he ever left you. Does that make you feel better?"

I try to stop crying for long enough to nod, but I can't fucking stop crying. "Here, stand up. It's pretty early in the morning. That gives me plenty of time to make you feel better." He pulls on my arm, trying to lift me off my feet. It works. He drapes my arm over his shoulder before carrying me towards his car.

Adrian would do that for me. I whimper slightly, as I continue to cry. He places me in the backseat of his car so I can lay down. I glance at my bruised and bloodied knuckles, and a shiver runs down my spine.

It reminded me of the blood that splattered all over me yesterday morning. I close my eyes, trying to steady my breath. "Are you okay?" Kaden asks, concern lacing his voice.

"Can we go away from here?" I ask, my voice barely audible. He starts the car without hesitation, and drives away from the abandoned park. I kept my eyes closed the entire ride there, not willing to see my bloodied knuckles.

The entire ride, I tried to numb myself as much as possible. I tried to numb my feelings, my pain, my fatigue. Everything. But it didn't work. I felt everything, and it was driving me crazy.

I wanted it to stop. I needed it to stop, but it wasn't going to stop. I don't know if it was ever going to stop. I couldn't do this.

I want Adrian back and I hate that because I know that he doesn't want me. Breathe in. Breathe out. I try a simple breathing exercise to calm down my nerves, but it's not working. I want to scream at myself for trying to be calm. I don't want to be calm. I want to be angry. I want to scream at myself for trying to be angry when he isn't worth my anger.

I hate it. I hate everything. I hate it here.

"Bailey... we're here," I hear Kaden delicately tell me. I don't open my eyes. I don't want to see the blood on my knuckles. "How are you feeling?"

"I don't want to," I whisper, more to myself than anyone.

"Come on, let's cheer you up," He opens the door to my side of the car and pulls me out as gently as possible. This mansion was way bigger than Adrian's.

Stop thinking about him!

I feel my lips begin to quiver once again, on the verge of tears. "Do you want ice cream? How about fries? I can always order pizza."

I had to smile slightly at the effort he was making to help me feel better, but it wasn't enough. "I just need to be alone for a while," I mumble. "I'm sorry." Just then, as if on cue, my phone begins to ring again.

It's Anna. I find myself picking up, regardless of the pain in my hands. "Bailey, baby are you okay? Where are you right now? I'm coming over with Blake, Dylan and Luna."

"I'm at Kaden's," I mumble.

"I'll be right over," She hangs up on me. For some reason, that hurt me. I don't even know why her hanging up hurt. I never really cared about something like that. Everything was hurting me. Fucking hell, how could I be so delicate?

Because I had given my entire heart to Adrian, in hope that he'd give me his in return. Now he broke my heart, and he never gave me his own heart to break in the first place. So the only broken one in this relationship is me because I was a dumb fuck to ever trust him in the first place.

I had guarded my heart so well. Until he came alone. I tore down my walls and let him in with open arms, only for him to destroy me from the inside. He's worse than my dad. My dad destroyed me from the outside, but he destroyed me from the inside.

He was the man I fell in love with. I should have known. It was too good to be true. I was living in a hallucination. I can't call it a dream because normal people dream. I'm insane because I lived in a delusion of something that was never there.

If he tries to hurt you, just call me and I'll be there.

But who do I call now when he was the very one who hurt me?

"Bailey!" A female voice shouts. I nearly jump out of my skin, until I realize that it's Anna. Luna, Dylan and Blake are right behind her. "Come here," She pulls me into a warm hug and I break into another sob. "Stop, don't cry."

"He won't tell me why!" Blake grumbles. "He won't fucking tell me."

"Stop thinking about him right now, we'll get it out of him sooner or later," Luna reprimands. Her belly was getting bigger every day, but she wasn't due until March, so it was fine.

"Jail-Bail, tell us what you need and we'll give it to you."

I want a lot of things, but that doesn't mean I can have them. "I want to take a shower."

"Treat this place as your own," Kaden offers. "I have to go somewhere. I'll be back."

I'll be back. He came back to break my heart. I want to ask Kaden to stop, but he's already gone. 

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a/n: well this hurts. a lot. i'm so sorry for doing this to bailey. 💔 anywayyyyyy, i hope you thought it chapter was good. 

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