I wish I wasn't as open as I am,
I wish I could hide my emotions with a click,
I wish I could stop my heartbeating so frantically,
I wish my whole brain would stop taking in the words and processing it for hours upon hours,
I wish I didn't have insomnia because I need sleep,
I wish my tears would just crawl back into where they came from,
I wish when I swallow, my throat doesn't feel like a ball jammed straight in the centre of my voicebox,
I wish I wasn't an open book that I am to only the closest around me,
For they are my weakness, but who gets it really?
