I'm here but I'm not here,
I'm upset yet I'm numb,
I've got love in my heart yet hate in my thoughts,
I'm feeling sick but I'm never throwing up,
She's telling me about abortion yet I wouldn't have ever given it up,
His telling me he will disown me yet I'm still telling him I love you,
He was telling me he'd kill me then and there if he wanted to and I'm here standing strong telling him to go on,
She's constantly coming into my room at nights and fucking up my thoughts and I'm out here praying that you really do love me,
Do you love me?
Or am I just having a delusional moment for the last 5 years?
You once told me love is never enough,
What is ever enough?
Is this not enough?
To keep standing my ground and telling them I love you faced with death as a punishment, will it burn on the tip of my tongue like the hell fire we both know about or will you make me a garden so I can finally be free?
Finally be happy?
Finally be me.
