I'm sorry if I stop speaking,
I'm sorry if I push you away,
I'm sorry for being distant,
But I can't seem to breathe,
I feel claustrophobic,
I feel confused,
I feel like my thoughts are constantly thinking why Allah has made my story this way,
I feel helpless,
I feel trapped,
I feel a sense of belonging lost at the pit of my stomach all because they couldn't accept what we had,
In all honesty,
I've been praying and asking God to help me,
To give me patience and peace,
Its not working,
I feel lost and even more confused than I already was,
Ya Allah I've tried my best at everything and making sure everyone was okay around me,
I've got hurt, I've forgiven,
I've helped and I've lost,
I've loved a lot and got thrown under the bus a million times,
I've given a lot of attention to everyone else but myself,
I've been there for everyone but where's my someone to worry about me and to care for me like I do with them all,
Someone who forgets there own business and makes sure I'm okay,
I'm finding it difficult Allah,
You are the all knower, the all mighty,
Please guide me and help my soul feel at peace.
