Seb came over almost instantly after hearing about Naomi's state of mind. He hadn't heard from her since the party. Thinking about it, he realised he spent next to no time with her at the party. He just saw her drinking, smoking and dancing every now and then. He thought she was okay. He didn't know what had happened to her.
"Naomi open the door please" Seb pleaded, as her knocked on Naomi's door
Naomi heard Seb through the door and her heart sunk with the realisation she was going to have to face him at some point. He was a relentless one and she knew it. She slowly stumbled to her door in her weak state, as the knocking and pleading continued.
She twisted the lock and heard him shuffle back so he could see her properly when she opened the door. As she creaked the door open, guilt ate away at her. She saw the worry in his eyes and she couldn't help but break.
Tears welled up in her eyes at the realisation of what she had really done, how she could of kissed another boy. Not only in an agreement with one boy, but wearing his letter clasped around her neck, as the other sucked bruises into her skin, making her moan for him. She was disgusted with herself.
"Nomi I'm so sorry" Seb croaked out, as he stared down at the girl not meeting his eyes.
Naomi couldn't help but furrow her brows at what he just said. Why was he apologising? She was the cheater. Did he also cheat on her?
"I'm so sorry I didn't stay with you at the party, I thought you wouldn't mind me going off with the boys but clearly it upset you" Seb explained
Naomi's eyes grew wides at his confession, it made her feel worse. She felt even more like shit. Not only did he apologise for leaving her to talk to Ollie and Elijah at the party, he was here in person asking for her forgiveness. She was frozen.
Seb solidified his apology by pulling Naomi's chin up for kiss, which was a peck. A peck she didn't return. Once he pulled away she had a distant look in her eyes. She wasn't herself.
Naomi couldn't help but think of Theo when she kissed Seb. She couldn't help but think of how Theo's lips felt on her's, how she wanted it to be Theo kissing her instead. She was ashamed of herself and her thoughts of another boy.
Seb reached for her hand, just as he did when she came over to get her stuff from his flat the first night they had met. He played with her fingers, as she did with his but she didn't react. She was still in thought. Seb pulled her towards him, and grabbed her face, pulling her in for another kiss.
Naomi quickly fell back into reality and pushed Seb off of her. She didn't want this. She didn't want him. She didn't want him anymore.
"Stop, please" Naomi whispered
Seb looked at her surprised, he couldn't understand why she didn't want to kiss him. He had apologised.
"Please, just leave" Naomi requested
"Wait what? No" Seb stated, standing his ground
"Please" Naomi asked
"No, I just got here and you're not okay" he reasoned
"Seb, please just leave me alone" She begged
"No"
"Sebastian, please" she pleaded
Seb's heart sunk at her calling him his full name, it wasn't in her usual sarcastic or mocking tone, she was serious.
"No" he repeated
Naomi grew frustrated with the stubborn boy infront of her. She just wanted to be by herself. She just wanted him to leave her alone and he couldn't understand that. Seb grabbed her arm, attempting to pull her in for a hug, when Naomi shouted "SEBASTIAN GET THE FUCK OUT"
"NO" He argued
"WE'RE DONE, OKAY? THIS...ALL OF THIS...IS FINISHED" she yelled, gesturing between the two of them.
"I don't want to see you again, we're done. Now you have no reason to be here. So please just leave" she begged
"No, you're not thinking clearly, you're not okay" He disagreed
"I'm thinking very clearly, and I don't want you here, okay!" She exclaimed
"Well, I want to be here, I want to be here for you. Nomi, please... I like you Nomi. I really like you" He expressed
Naomi's head was spinnIng. Theo's confession was still running through her head and now Seb had just admitted that he liked her and probably wanted more out of their agreement than she intended. She couldn't deal with this. She couldn't deal with all of this at once.
"Well I don't." She seethed
"All of this, yeah... well, it meant nothing. NOW GET THE FUCK OUT" she exploded
"Nomi please" He begged, as he watched the girl he was falling for shut him out and push him away.
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Clouding My Judgement
Romance[Completed] Book 1 in The 'Three Words' Series - A/N I know this book isn't written the best and low-key cringe, it was one of my first, sorry. Naomi is a 18 year old university student, studying fashion marketing in first year attempting to make f...
