So Wrong Yet Feels So Right

Chapter 49

Chapter 49

Mommy left my condo after our heated confrontation. Apparently, she's yet again, very disappointed with me. What new, right?

"Mag-uusap tayo ng daddy mo sa bahay!" ang huli niyang sabi bago siya padabog na lumabas ng unit ko.

Napahawak na lang ako sa ulo ko at bumagsak sa upuan.

Mabilis na dumalo sa akin si Jeremiah at inalalayan ako. "I'm okay," I assured him.

"We will talk to them. I won't let you go alone."

Napahinga ako ng malalim. His assurance comforted me big time.

"M-Mahal mo pa ba a-ako?"

Hindi ko alam kung bakit iyon ang lumabas sa bibig ko. Nasabi ko na bago ko pa man mapag-isipan.

I just bravely told my mother that I love him. I'm not asking for any returns but he told me he loves me when we also had a confrontation one night.

Whether he still loves me or not, my feelings won't change. I will still love him. Well, I don't think loving is a choice, love is a feeling. You don't force yourself to love, you feel that. What you choose is whether you will fight for your love or not, will you stay or not.

And I can feel in myself that I love him so much, and it doesn't depends if he loves me too or not.

But then...

"If you want me to tell how much I love you everyday, I will," he said straight in my eyes.

Napayuko ako pero mas lumapit siya sa akin at inangat ang mukha ko para tumingin sa kaniya.

Hindi ako sigurado kung nahihirapan na akong huminga dahil sa pag-iyak o dahil nakakapaso ng damdamin ang mga tingin niya.

"Never ask that again. My answer will never change," he whispered and kissed my head.

Niyakap ko siya. Sinubsob ko ang mukha ko sa dibdib niya kaya nararamdaman ko kung gaano kabilis ang tibok ng puso niya gaya ng sa akin.

"I said, we'll take it slow this time. But, I don't want you to think twice about my love for you. Amanda, you're the only one for me."

Mas lalo akong naiyak pero sa pagkakataong ito ay hindi dahil sa sakit o sama ng loob... kundi sa saya.

Mas hinigpitan ko ang yakap ko sa kaniya pero nagulat ako ng may malamig na bagay akong naramdaman sa daliri ko.

Napaahon ako mula sa pagkakayakap kay Jeremiah at halos mawalan na ako ng ulirat dahil sa nakikita ko.

Napatakip ako sa bibig ko ng makita ang singsing na isinuot ni Jerico sa kamay ko. Oh my gosh!

Nabibingi na ako sa kabog ng dibdib ko at para na akong hinihingal sa bilis ng tibok ng puso ko.

"I told our son to give it to you whenever he thinks you're ready, but..." he didn't finished what he was saying.

Mas lalo akong nagulat sa sunod na ginawa ni Jeremiah.

It's a cliche move in almost all of the wedding proposal but now I understand how each one of it is different from one another.

When I saw him kneeled in front of me while holding my hands, I knew that... the moment was only for us.

"Amanda, my love... we had lost a lot of time we could've been together. We were dawned by our mistakes. We grew apart from each other. But this time, please don't run anymore. Let's begin our new lives together. Let's begin our mornings with an assurance to come back on each others arms every night. Marry me, please."