The Surrogate

29- Perfect family

He didn't want to disturb you but then he also wanted to make sure you are okay, his heart was anxious not letting him think of anything else ;after a small debate he decided he would just peek in your room and leave if you are already asleep.

All he wanted was to make sure you are okay.

Making sure to make minimal sound he opened the door just enough to peek in, luckily the gate didn't make any sound but the scene inside made his heart drop in his stomach.

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You couldn't get rid of all the thoughts your mind was jammed with, you didn't even realise when the first drop of tears rolled down your cheeks and then second one and now you are sobbing, unable to bear it, unable to hold in.

But you can't even cry out loud, afraid Yun might wake up, sitting on the floor with both your palms covering your mouth preventing any sound. You let go of all the tears. It was hurting you, Yun is all you have and seeing your child suffering made you feel so weak and helpless to the point that you had never felt before, not even when you were struggling for having a single meal a day.

You never complained, you lived life bearing all the thorns that life had thrown in your way not once you felt this defeated, this resentment towards your conditions. You always were a positive soul who took everything as a challenge and fought for it, but how long?

H..how long do you plan to play with my lifee...how long do you plan to make me suffer.... Even after everything I never resent you...I always believed in you..I..I thought god had a plan for everything....H..he can never see his children in pain.. But what about me? Or perhaps did y..you also abandon me?Jus l..like my parents did? Because all my life the only thing I received was pain, miseries.... Why god why?? My life was colourless..I dreaded everything..I always felt I had no motive to keep living untill.until I found Yun.. He became my light....H..he gave me happiness.. he became my reason to keep fighting b..but now you want to take him too? He is a kid..why? Why do you have to give him so much pain? Please..please save my Yun..please don't let anything happen to.him..pl..please god! I..I will die.

Namjoon bit his lips preventing himself from crying.. he wasn't the type to cry easily but your pain was affecting him in ways even he didn't understand, your tears were stabbing his heart , he himself was unaware why everything about you was hurting him to this extent?

"Sh..nothing will happen to him....Don't think so much." He sweeped you from the cold floor making you startle, even in the dim light he could see how red your eyes were. Without much thought you hugged him back now sobbing in his chest...

It felt good..to have someone...someone to lean on too...someone to comfort you...someone to wipe your tears...

"It's okay yn, calm down okay? See Yun is sleeping so peacefully, you don't want to disturb his sleep now do you?" He laid you on the bed sitting beside you, you vigorously shook your head biting your lips to stop the cascading stream of downfall from your already puffy eyes.

It broke his heart to see you in this state, so vulnerable. He never saw this side of you, no one did, not even Lily. You always managed to conceal your pain under a fake plastered smile but now it was just too much. Everything seemed to much

"Yn, everything will be fine okay ? Yun is such a brave boy, I am sure he will get through it perfectly fine. Please don't worry. You need to be strong for him." He let his hand comb through your soft hairs which visibly seem to relaxen you.

Feeling some warmth you snuggled closer into his chest, the way his hands were playing with your hairs felt so good, your eyes felt droopy threatening to close , your sobs also had completely died down.