Love that feller teller: A Miles teller fan fiction

Chapter 68

I think I'm falling for Miles. But how can I be falling in love with Miles if Max left only about a month ago? I feel like a horrible person. Your not supposed to get over someone you love so quickly. Especially fall in love with someone new....But maybe I just never really got over Miles. I don't know. I feel like this isn't right though. I feel like I'm committing a crime by getting over him so quickly. Ugh. Are their rules on when it's okay to love someone?

Miles is just... so... different. He's so wonderfully different. He's nice and smart and funny and I miss him. I miss kissing his lips. I miss his touch. I miss his large hands intertwined with mine. I miss the way he was wary of going too fast. I love the way he doesn't care too much about his appearance but looks adorable anyways. I love how he doesn't care about what people think of him or if he's being judged. I miss feeling safe under his embrace. I miss him.

He's so special to me. So different from everyone else. He sticks out. He's witty, and annoying yet lovable, and nice, and funny, and sarcastic, and incredibly smart and I love him. I always have. How can someone get over Miles? It's just impossible not to love his personality.

Now don't get me wrong, I did love Max. I might even still love him. I just can't get my feelings straight. But what i feel towards Max doesn't really matter anymore. I need to forget him. Not completely, but just as my boyfriend.

What am I going to do though? It's not like Miles is waiting for me to jump into his arms and kiss him in the rain. I wish. But when we went to the movies a while ago he did say that he still loved me. Who knows if that's still true. I feel like it might be. I'm not sure, I can't tell.

If he doesn't feel the same way I can just seduce him. Haha just kidding. I might be a little too confident that he likes me back but something in my gut just tells me that he hasn't gotten over me either. I sound so cocky right now.

This time it's going to be different. I'm not going to wait for him to make the first move. He might never make it. I'm just going to go for it. Not like a whore of course but I'm just straight up going to tell him my feelings for him. I just need to wait for the right moment.