American Boy ✔️

Chapter Nine

Chapter Nine: Don't

"You... said... what?" bulong ni Silas habang punong puno nang gulat ang ekspresyon ng mukha niya.

Huminga ako nang malalim sabay lamon sa french fries ko na binili ni mommy pag-uwi niya kagabi galing trabaho nanaman. There is no way I'm telling Silas what happened again that day at kung ang pinag-usapan na'ming dalawa.

Isang beses ko lang sasabihin. I'm not saying it again. For god's sake its recess at talagang nasa harap nanaman ka'ming dalawa ng bathroom, right beside the soda machine.

Silas was the one who pulled me that day so I could talk to Alexander, I guess as one of his friends he was worried about Alexander's actions, he wasn't being himself at ako yung dahilan kung bakit. I made him upset because I was avoiding him just to prepare how to confess to him properly.

And I ended up telling him how I felt. But he didn't reject me, which is good, right?

But I'm overthinking, I really am.

"Rina... seryoso ka ba?" tanong niya pa.

I don't even want to talk about this with anyone. But Silas was concerned and he wanted to know if everything went well. And since he knew the way I look at Alexander, I told him that I said it, that I confessed.

"Who would have thought that the prettiest girl of the NEO would confess to the American Boy?" tawa niyang sabi.

I glare at him. Hindi rin nakakatulong 'tong lalaking 'to. I shouldn't have told him, parang mas lalo ko lang pinalala yung pang-aasar niya sa'kin. And here I thought I could trust Silas Nakamoto, I should not have told him after all.

"Nang-aasar ka nanaman? Really?" I rolled my eyes.

"Please, nagulat lang ako na inamin mo sa kanya yung nararamdaman mo. I mean, you told him you like him."

"Okay, okay. I regret it, I already regret it, Silas!" naiirita kong sabi.

"Hey, at least he will think about it, maybe he's thinking about the answer now?" he smirks.

Hope. I know that. I know that really well. Ang dami ko nang nasabang mga libro and it's always hoping when it comes to wishing someone you like to like you back. Do I even want to hope that he will like me back? Is it even possible? Bata pa kami, we're not even in senior high yet, dapat kasi ginamit ko yung utak ko and made another excuse instead of confessing!

I thought that I would at least confess to him at like our last year here in NEO. Ba't ko naman kasi sinabi sa kanya agad! Of course natuwa ako na pag-iisipan niya muna, but I already regret it! I'm so embarrassed too! Nakakahiya talaga!

Ni hindi ko nga alam kung paano ko siya kakausapin. I ate with him and together with our friends without Genevieve in the canteen. I was talking to Silas and Ryland, but Alexander was talking to the older Manuel brothers. He didn't even spare a look at me.

"Do you think he's avoiding me?"

"Hm? Avoiding you?"

"Yeah, he wasn't even looking at me."

"You guys talked yesterda--"

"Yeah, for a group study, kailangan yun para may extra points. He's obviously avoiding me..." I sighed.

It's now all coming back to me. Siguro masaya ako na pag-iisipan niya pero 'di dapat ako masaya na sinabi niya yun dahil alam niya na, at baka 'di niya 'ko gusto, and I just remembered one more thing which I hate.