American Boy ✔️

Chapter Thirty Four

Chapter Thirty Four: One-Night Stand

WARNING: 18+ only. Slight mature and explicit content. Please don't read this chapter if you're under 18 or if you're uncomfortable with this kind of scenes

I might have lied to myself.

Maybe... this wasn't the first time that Alexander had kissed me.

This is the second time. Hinalikan niya 'ko noong last year namin sa senior high, we had an issue back then, hindi niya alam na may pinagdadaanan din ako nung time na yun with my parents.

He was talking about his issues too when he went to my place, thank God wala yung mom ko nung oras na yun.

And then I started talking about my issues to him and he just leaned in and kissed me.

Just like that.

Alam mo kung anong nangyari pagkatapos no'n?

Umiyak nanaman ako, he said it was just a kiss, a kiss for him and that's it but he knows that it's not just a kiss to me.

He ignored me and then apologized to me, if not for Genevieve then maybe he wouldn't have apologized to me.

I was disappointed.

Pipiliin ko na sanang makamove on sa kanya kaso nga lang yung halik na yun ang dahilan kung bakit bumalik yung pag-asa sa puso ko.

That was the first and last kiss for me from someone I loved.

And now... another kiss again.

This is more complicated than the first one.

Like, hello?

We're best friends and this time we're both adults!

Nakamove on na 'ko tapos bigla niya ulet ako hahalikan ng gano'n?

What kind of bullshit is this?

The problem is I can't even tell Genevieve about this, I can't vent my feelings about this whole situation.

Nabibwisit ako kasi akala ko wala na 'kong problema sa kanya pero mas malaking problema 'to kaysa sa away namin nung nakaraan.

This is a kiss! Halik! Anong klaseng relasyon ang meron ka sa matalik mong kaibigan kapag may halikan ng nagaganap sa pagitan niyong dalawa?

Kung simpleng halik yun, magiging okay ako, I'm sure. But I kissed him back, that is the issue!

It could've been just some drunk mistake, just a kiss, but I kissed back and I'm sure na kahit medyo tipsy ako nung gabing yo'n, tuwid pa rin ang pag-iisip ko.

I fucked up. I really fucked up and I don't know what to do now, I don't know what to do!

Busy today si Genevieve and I don't want to bother her because of my bullshit, tsinek ko na lang yung email ko muna kung may trabaho ba 'ko o schedule, they said they would send me a schedule for my work every week.

I already slept at her place hours after we kissed, hindi ko nasabi kung bakit pero nagtataka siya kung bakit ang weird ko daw, sabi ko lang bored ako, na malapit na kong mamatay sa sobrang boring sa loob ng apartment ko but I'm really just ignoring Alexander.

I just want to be away from him.

So far wala pa 'kong trabaho, it would be next week.