There's Something Holdin' Me Back

Letter 47

♡♪ [ just a suggestion: play strawberries & cigarettes in the background on your headphones or speaker whatever while reading the part which you will recognise (what part I'm talking about) ahead for better effect! ;) ] Bye

PIPER

I wake up with a horrible headache. Man, I wish I was dead instead.

Headaches are annoying cause they're unavoidable. It's like they are a constant reminder that says Suffer Bitch.

I held my head in my palm as I curse under my breath.

It hurts so bad!

That's what I should get for drinking so much and not keeping the promise I made to myself years ago that I'll never turn into my alcoholic mother. I don't want my kids to feel like orphans with alive parents. I don't want my husband to run away from me.

I glanced out of the window it was raining. I love rain or maybe the cozy feeling it gives or maybe the darkness and the sound of it, basically everything.

I might sound dumb but having headache on sunny days are worse.

So, I'm glad it's raining I hugged my blanket tightly watching the rain. I think the only thing good about today is, it's raining.

I glanced around I was tucked in my bed with the same outfit from yesterday. I lay back again for a bit until I forced myself to stand up.

I looked at my reflection, I was unrecognizable, a total mess..my makeup was smudged, my hair was a nest. I look no different than an adult version of Annabelle.

I quickly tied my hair in a bun as I wipe my make-up, splashing water on my face...I brushed my teeth, before taking off the clothes and walking into the shower.

The warm water heals me. Immediately my body relaxed under it. I felt so much better.

I played pov by Ariana Grande. Her voice relaxed me some more.

I stayed under it until everything feels tolerable than a few minutes ago.

I got in my SpongeBob PJs.