Beneath The Clouds (Passion Series #2)

Chapter 32

He ruined my day!

Hanggang sa makauwi ako sa mansiyon ay hindi na maipinta ang hitsura ko. It was the first time I saw him again after for how many years. I admitted and I won't deny the fact that he still have an effect on me. Ngunit marami na ang nagbago, hindi na ako magpapadala sa nararamdaman ko.

I am trying to be matured now. I don't wanna act like who I was before because I'm done with it. I don't want to be desperate. Rence and I are already done. Pero ngayon ay naiinis ako kasi bakit ganoon siya umakto sa muling pagkikita naming dalawa?

There's no other men after him, I want to focus on my son. I have Nero now, I have a child. Halos lahat ay kaya kong ibigay sa anak ko, pero maliban sa buong pamilya. It was so excruciating to know that I grew up in a complete family but I can't give it to my child. Siguro, hindi man ngayon pero balang araw ay alam kong hahanapin niya sa akin kung sino iyong tunay niyang ama at iyon ang kinakatakutan ko.

I just can't believe that Rence and I met again for how many years. Marami na rin ang nagbago, hindi ko alam pero siguro ay sila na ni Miss Deizel ngayon. If he is not for me, it's okay with me. Sa katotohanan ay kaya ko naman talagang mabuhay na wala siya, eh.

He became more matured than before, he looked presentable and clean. I'm not even sure if he's still that Rence I knew years ago. Even his shoulders are getting broader. Kahit hindi ko siya masyadong napagmasdan kanina, kinabisado ko pa rin ang mga nagbago sa kaniya. His perfect jaw line and his manly body. His tanned skin is suited on him. In short, mas lalo siyang gumuwapo ngayon.

But who cares? Hindi ko na siya dapat iniisip ngayon dahil sinira niya ang araw ko. Nang dahil sa kaniya ay nasiraan pa ako ng cellphone at bumili pa ng bago. I bought a new brand phone and I transferred my sim card and memory card there.

Clarence also couldn't contact me, we didn't communicating for years because I changed my phone number and I deleted all of my social media accounts. Gusto ko na kasing magbagong buhay at gusto kong ayusin ang sarili ko. Gusto kong baguhin kung ano man ako noon, hindi para sa kahit sino, kung hindi para sa akin at para sa anak ko.

Gusto kong buuhin ang sarili kong muntik nang mawala sa akin. I almost lost myself just because I found Rence. I will never let him enter my life again and ruin who am I now. Magbabago na ako at nagbago na ako. Hindi na ako iyong babaeng basta-basta na lang magpadala sa kaniya.

I was so childish, immature, and I was so awful before, I won't deny that. But now, I am trying to change myself for the better. Kung ano man ako noon, babaguhin ko na ngayon.

I was in the middle of my thoughts when I suddenly heard a noise from outside. Nakarinig ako ng busina ng sasakyan, hudyat na nandito na sina Han. I immediately fixed myself and the paper bags for my parents. I wanted to surprise Mom and Dad even through this.

After I bought a new phone, I decided to buy a bag for my mother while pair of shoes and a slacks are for Dad. I also bought some toys for my baby. Kaso nga lang, wala akong pasalubong kay Han. Babawi na lang ako sa kaniya bukas ng umaga, itre-treat ko na lang siya.

Bumukas ang main door ng mansiyon at ang unang bumungad sa akin ay si Daddy. Mabilis akong tumakbo patungo sa kaniya at niyakap siya nang mahigpit. He hugged me back and caressed my back while showering some kisses on the top of my head. I missed him so much, I missed both of my parents.

"I miss you and Mommy, Daddy," I whispered.

"I love you, our angel, Daddy misses you."