Welcome to the world of hell (DSMP)

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yeah..this is another a/n..i don't really do these but let me explain. so I'm not going to be posting much after this. Well, until I feel better. since I can somehow trust the Internet and not my own family or friends, I'll tell you.

y'know babra. Well she did a 'prank' on me. it wasn't really the funny ones or harmful ones. well not really. she harmed me mentally.

she knows that I have really bad trust issues. so she deicided to do a 'prank' and said she was just joking. the prank was that she was dating my ex. yes, the ex that told me to hang myself for no reason. the same fucking ex that was toxic, manipulative, always made me feel really fucking scared and/or stressed when I'm around him or not and finally, the one who put me through abuse. yes guys. I've been abused by my mother and my ex.

then he would gaslight me when I said he abuses me. and he tried to 'expose' me in the argument.

I was literally crying. I felt sick, disgusting and dirty. I blamed myself for all of it. I was supposed to eat dinner but I couldn't because I literally didn't want to eat anymore. the fact that she did that makes me think if I should even trust her. I knew I was going to get fake friends. but I didn't expect her to be one of them.

so now she's saying that she's so 'sorry' and that she 'can't loose me'. that she 'lost everything'. but the thing is, she still has so many other best friends she can replace me with. so the fact that she said I was her best friend and now she's saying that I left her for one of my other friends is dumb.

if you felt like I was leaving you for another person, then we're not friends. if I still include you in things, we are just distant friends. the fact that the other friend was literally also friends with babra makes it more confusing. so when me and that friend tried to hangout, babra would always get mad and tell her other best friends. she would turn everyone against us.

they would always say that we messed up when we don't even know what we did. we fucking kept trying to include her in our conversation but she just didn't join them. and now she's blaming us? turning everyone against us? we tried to get everyone to understand what was really going on but she would make up another lie. eventually, everything and everyone was fine.

babra is saying I broke the girl code because I hung out with that other girl. the thing is, I never left her for that girl. I still stayed by both of their sides, as friends. so she brought up the past when it was already fixed. I haven't even been talking to the girl that much. me and that girl just clicked in a friendly manner since she knew as much dsmp as me. we were practically the same person when it comes to dsmp. and she liked other things that I liked.

it isn't my fault that babra liked dsmp but just didn't join the conversation. even when we changed the subject for her to join.

now the real question is, is she manipulating me? is she acting like my ex? most likely..

I obviously didn't add some things since they were private information. but I just practically skimmed the surface of this.

thank you for reading this a/n since this does affect me a lot. First it was people around me dying, then the argument and now betrayal.

have a good rest of your day. I really love you guys even though I don't know you. you don't know how much you support me rn. <3

expecially you Real_Dragon23. thank you! to all of you!