Paradise Lost [Tokyo Revengers]

Chapter 121

Chapter 121:

I was wrong,

I always thought Mikey was doing all of this because of Shinichiro, I thought he wanted to conquer the world because he looked up to Shinichiro; he wanted Toman to expand and become big just like the Black Dragons were, and that's the reason why I never really questioned his intentions, 

Even when he invited Kisaki Tetta to join Toman,

Maybe that was one of his goals but it wasn't his main reason,

I had no idea he had this darkness in his heart that was slowly eating him alive,

What kind of partner was I? I spent my everyday with him but I never even noticed. Was it because I was too preoccupied with Shinichiro's death? I was selfish, I only thought about my feelings and never really understood Mikey,

I wasn't there when Mikey talked it out with the captains about Kisaki joining, so during the appointing of the 3rd division captain, I was shocked to find out he already had someone in mind. I could not believe that he brought Kisaki, who was part of Moebius then, to become a division captain. I don't know where he met Kisaki or what they talked about prior to the meeting but it seemed like they were scheming something,

I really didn't know...

If only I knew he was conniving with someone like Kisaki then maybe none of this would have happened, but then again, I was the one who told Kisaki about Mikey,

Apparently, after I told Kisaki about Toman and Mikey, he came looking for him, he offered Mikey that he could get Pah-chin out of juvie as long as he gets to be the next 3rd division captain,

And that's when Mikey started meeting with Kisaki frequently, no one knew about it except Baji who just happened to hear them talk one time, and because of that, Baji did what he did during the Bloody Halloween,

 The founding members were against Kisaki joining but the other division captains thought it was a good idea, they know Kisaki could help Toman grow both in number and in power, nonetheless, Draken, Baji, and Mitsuya were strongly against it. They knew Pah wouldn't want any of this,

They knew Pah wouldn't want to get out of juvie with such dirty tactics,

and yet, Mikey made the decision to appoint Kisaki,

Why? Because Pah wasn't the real reason why Mikey wanted Kisaki in Toman. He wanted Kisaki to guide him, Pah was just an excuse so he could get Kisaki close to him, at that point Mikey didn't care if what he was doing is right or wrong, he was just too exhausted trying to hold in the darkness inside him,

Holding in the dark impulse inside him is slowly and painfully killing him day by day, 

He was ready to accept the dark impulse and kill Kazutora,

But Hanagaki Takemichi prevented that from happening,

despite being not strong, he was a guy who will stand up no matter what happens. If Mikey learned one thing from Takemichi, it's that you don't have to be good at fighting to be considered strong,

Because of Takemichi's pure intentions, he managed to suppress Mikey's dark impulses,

But he can only hold it in for so long,

Especially with everything that we went through,

"I'll give you one last chance to step down and go back home," Mikey deadpanned, he was trying his best to calm himself but I couldn't do what he asked

I can't back out now, not after finding out the reality of this fucked up story,

If I want to win, I must make Mikey go all out.

He needs to let his dark impulses out, 

It's either him or me,

I paused for a moment and made a thinking face, purposely mocking Mikey who was completely done with my bullshit,

"Nah, I'm goo--," I was quickly cut off by a strong kick in the head, throwing me a few meters back.

I honestly did not see that coming,

I slowly got up from the ground and spit out the blood from my mouth. I almost passed out from that nuclear kick of his, he wasn't holding back anymore,

"Do you really think you stand a chance against me? You never learn do you?" Mikey stated, I just chuckled in response,

"Ahh~ I'm exhausted," I mumbled to myself, mentally cursing everyone who made me promise to take care of Mikey, "I should have listened to the voices in my head, it could have saved me the trouble," I always thought those voices was a result of severe head trauma but after that vision, I've realized that those were voices of my future self from different timelines,

One telling me to save Mikey no matter what and the other voice was from the original timeline,

"This is where I win, Manjiro," I declared but was given another kick to the head, "I'm not going to lose to you, not anymore," I  got up from the floor and glared up at him,

"You should be dead by now," He was somewhat surprised I was still standing after taking so many kicks in the head,

"Well, I'm not," I rebutted, not yet at least. Mikey gave me another kick in the head but I somewhat lessen the blow by blocking it with my arm, but the strength of the kick sent me flying a few meters back yet again,

My vision was starting to get blurry, it feels like I'm losing vision in my other eye as well,

"I've seen so many futures, don't you think I haven't thought of this through? I know what the fuck I am doing!" I said as I slowly got up once more, "I made my choice, and that's to destroy you and rule Japan, I'm not here to play house with you anymore, Manjiro!" I punched Mikey in the face, knocking him down on the floor, 

"Playing house?" He mumbled as he got back up from the ground, "You say you've thought of this through, don't you think I haven't?!"

Don't tell me he knows...

"I know there isn't a future for us, I know that in every single timeline we always ended up failing. I left because I wanted to protect everyone but you were the only one I couldn't leave behind, you were what suppresses my dark impulse for this long!" He said as he was about to punch me in the face but I quickly evaded it, "Didn't we get married in every timeline? Didn't we have children in the future? You saw it didn't you?! We got to that point because I had you with me!"

The reason why we were able to reach the point where we had our own family was because I was with him. I never thought of it, but it does seem like Mikey was being consumed by his dark impulse faster than any other timeline,

"I was the reason why you were able to suppress your dark impulse?" I scoffed, as I landed a punch on his face, "You wouldn't have your dark impulse in the first place if it wasn't for me! You wouldn't be suffering right now if it wasn't for me! Takemichi wouldn't be dragged into this mess if it wasn't for me either!" 

"What are you talking about?" Takemichi questioned from a fair distance,

"8 years ago, in the original timeline, I killed Sano Manjiro," I revealed to everyone who was shocked by my revelation, "You knew about it, didn't you, Mikey?"

"I only found out after the battle of the deities--,"Mikey started off, he knew about it before I did? "Wakasa told me about it, what these dark impulses are, where they came from. He was trying to save me, he went back in time to save me,"

If it wasn't for that vision, I wouldn't have known about it, what I did and who suffered because of me,

If only I knew about all of this sooner, Shinichiro and Mikey wouldn't have gone through all of this bullshit,

A/N: the chapter is a little shorter than usual but mehh,, will update again tomorrow or Monday. mwahh