obx imagines

healthy~JJ

a/n:
request from kindaquirkybookworm

trigger warnings: Forced throwing up, ED

(JJ and Y/N are dating in this)

I gained a bit of weight recently and it was bugging the shit out of me.

I didn't get it, I literally haven't ate in 2 days yet I still was bigger then I was before.

Today, Ward, Rose, and Whezzie were on the mainland and Rafe was at a party so me and the pogues we're hanging out at Sarah's house.

I had just ate a bag of chips and I felt so guilty, I hadn't ate in two days and I ruined it all now.

In result, I was sitting on the bathroom floor, sticking my fingers down my throat.

I threw up in to the toilet but there was a knock on the door.

shit.

"One-one sec!" I said.

I flushed the toilet and stood up, washing my hands and rinsing my mouth before opening the door.

JJ stood on the other side. "Hey?" I said. "Hey uh.. you okay?" He asks. "What? Yeah i'm good." I said.

"I...I heard you throwing up in there." He says. "Oh. sorry I just- the food didn't sit right with me." I said.

"Sweetheart we ate the same thing, the same chips we always do?" He says.

My mind was blank, I had absolutely no clue what to say at this point. I didn't know how to keep up my lie with out it backfiring on myself because this wasn't working very well. JJ always knew when I was lying, he knew me better then I knew myself which is why its so hard to try and lie.

I know its wrong and I shouldn't be lying to my boyfriend but I don't want to cause a big deal out of nothing. And I don't want to tell anyone that anyways it's just embarrassing to say I dont like how I look.

Everyone has insecurities so I dont want to seem like a baby.

"J, im okay I promise." I said. "Y/n, you dont need to lie, if you aren't feeling well, ilk take you home, make you soup or something?" He said.

Now I feel like shit.

"Shit JJ im sorry I don't deserve you you're so sweet." I said. "Hm?" He asked.

"I-Im not sick JJ I Feel perfectly fine I just.. this is embarrassing but ive been gaining some weight recently and I just- I want to lose it." I said.

"So you forced yourself to throw up?" He said. "Please don't tell anyone." I whispered as my eyes got watery from the embarrassment I felt.

"No Y/n of course not! Im so so sorry I didn't realize you were feeling like that- it-its my job to make sure you feel beautiful and im sorry." He said.

"No J please don't blame yourself, its not your fault!" I said.

"Turn around and look in the mirror." He spun my hips around so I was looking in the mirror and he wrapped his arms around me from behind.

"You're so gorgeous Y/n jesus you're so gorgeous! Look in that mirror and you'll see it." He said. "J- I- I cant I dont see it." I don't see what you see." I said.

He spun me back around to face him. "Y/n you are so beautiful- like prettiest girl ive seen type of shit." He picked up my hand and kisses the top of it, "Please-please don't starve yourself. I dont like that you're hurting the girl I love." He said.

I slightly smiled, "I love you too JJ." I said.

"How long has it been since you ate a real meal? I promise I wont be mad just don't bullshit me." He says. "Not long.. just-just a couple says." I said as I looked to the floor.

"Jesus Y/n. Im ganna take you home, and I-Im not the best cook so we can make something together but I need you to eat something, and I dont think you should be changing the way you ate because it was perfectly fine but if its bothering you this much then we fan eat something healthy. Baby if you wanna change something you have to do it the right way, no more damaging yourself." He said.

"Promise me, for me Y/n please." He says. "I-I promise." I nodded.

"Now smiled for me pretty girl." he said. He poked my stomach to get a real smile making me laugh.

"I love you." I said as wrapped my arms around his body, resting my head on his chest.

"I love you so much Y/n, thats why it upset me when you said you weren't eating, I need my girl to be happy and healthy." He said as he wrapped his arms around me and kisses the top of my head.