10/11/2014
dear diary,
i wish i was in love lol. i don't think anyone will like me either. i mean honestly, look at me, im just shitty? confused about how even i got thr current friends i have because they definitely deserve someone so much better than me as their friend. im just too not good of a friend or even a crush to have. only you, my diary knows the amount of hatred i have for myself. too much. sometimes i just wish i'd disappear into thin air and nobody would notice because im just THAT unimportant. well tomorrow im going to sleep over at seungkwan's and im excited but i don't know if i should tell him anything or vent. im just disappointed in myself, at the stuff i do, no motivation in life, no will to live. the way i exist too and everything about me, my fucked up personality, the way i look is so fucked up too, everything is fucked up. i wish i could change everything. im going to go cry to my cats now bye. they comfort me so well.
- love, min.
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moonbin's death has me so unsettled about everything. i really couldn't believe it when i first saw the news, i actually thought it was a sick rumour that was being spread but no, it wasnt. he really was an amzing human being and the world didnt deserve this beautiful person. i have so much to say but they arent coming out as proper words, the best way i can describe my love for him is that its fucking endless. all the hate he got was undeserved. the kpop industry is fucked up and the whole world is too fucked up to have a human like him existed on it. he's in a better place now though and thats the only thing that matters. he'll always remain in our hearts. he's a lovely human who'll never be forgotten for the amazing things he'd done for us fans, the amazing songs he'd sang, his personality in general.
may his soul rest in peace, fly high moonbinnie, we love you. 🕊❤️🩹
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dear diary | minsung
Fanfictionwhere han jisung reads his boyfriend's diary he wrote since he was a teenager. tw.
