dear diary | minsung

epilogue

20/03/2020

dear diary,
well im so excited to say, I FINALLY GRADUATED COLLEGE!!! im moving back to korea soon with sungie, fucking finally, i feel like this journey has been absolutely insane.

idk if i can call it a journey but it was something. packing up all the stuff has been so hectic, having to get out of the apartment very very soon. im so excited to move back and maybe join a company as a dance mentor or teacher, let's see how life treats me. WAIT DID I EVER WRITE SAYING AFTER A FEW MONTHS SUNGIE AND I RENTED AN APARTMENT HERE?? a small one, the others are too expensive for us to even think about.

i seriously can't wait to move back, i'll be meeting mom and dad after what, 2 whole years i think, I'M TOO EXCITED. i can't wait to finally meet my friends and have some great homecooked food.

sung and i did find an apartment there to rent for the time being. soonie, doongie and dori are doing perfectly fine too, just like dori chewed up jisung's favorite pants when we were asleep so im really not too sure about him. he still prolly loves them tho.

i'll surely miss all the friends i made here, it was a whole experience that i will never forget because it was absolutely insane. i met so many new people and even got myself a boyfriend, past minho would surely scream. i can confirm.

im in love tho, seriously, in love. i can't describe anything but i can say im in love. its so nice to wake up every morning next to him. also fuck im already 21, almost 22?? bitch no way im still that 16 year old delulu ass minho in my head and nobody can tell me otherwise. the era when i thought i would find a boyfie soon but it only happened after 5 years. fun.

god it feels so good writing here again, it's been so long, feels unreal too. college life honestly felt like a fever dream, it went by much faster than i wanted it to. but some days of it, i never wanna experience ever again for the rest of my life. ever.

i will rant about my cats now. i love them they are so goddamn cute and lovely, i love them more than life itself, they're the best things ever happened to me and they've been there for me through everything. i love them.

wow, that genuinely felt like i went 6 years back to when i was in high school, sitting in the library with seungkwan and wonu next to me, quietly writing in here. it's been so long since i spoke to them. i hope they're doing well, i miss them. it's been so long since i spoke to seonghwa too, ever since he moved out of the dorms with joong and i soon got an apartment too. i might message them later today, before i move out. i sure do miss my boo so much, he is so amazing to be around. im growing up too fast, time is flying. sometimes i wish i could go back in time, those times in high school, they were so chaotic but so much fun at the same time. i remember sitting at my secret spot when i had no friends at all, i used to feel lonely but i would listen to music on my own, just minding my own business.

life is crazy, it goes by so fast and you never even realize it. i just hope i can cherish every minute and second with jisung and my family once im back home, because sure as hell i won't ever get these days back. i want to make as many memories as i can, just like i did in high school so that when im in my late 40s and early 50s, i can reminisce these little memories i will make. life is short and i will have to make the most of it, make the most of what i have.

the only one i have really been speaking to is changbin, he's slaying out there in korea. he got a job as a music producer at damn jyp ent, he's come so far im proud. maybe i should apply as a choreographer or something too, wait fuck i can't until i get a phd in dance. shit i'll just have to be a teacher for a bit. anyways

this diary entry is too random only because it's been so long since i wrote here. i love it, feels like i have gone back in time, writing the most random entries in this diary. HA.

welp fuck i gotta go now, gotta pack more. fml. fml best album, go stream it old minho. you literal grandfather go stream fml what are you doing sitting on a rocking chair? dumbass. n e gays. i really gotta go

i think this will indeed be my last diary entry for now since this notebook is almost over anyways. i will miss it. so much. almost my whole teenagehood is in this one book, it feels so nostalgic. a book i bought for sale in summer of 2014. i will never forget it. it was a big sale, and i was walking back from the grocery store, the sun was shining bright. i looked at the hustle next to me and it was a bookstore. i went in to check the place out and ended up buying 3 story books that were amazing along with this diary. time surely flies.

although this may be an ending to one chapter of my life and a starting to a new one, i can't wait for the day i open another book in a few years and start writing in it with the words; dear diary.

- signing off, min <33

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so. finally the book is done. my first ever book i have ever written and the experience did feel like a fever dream, it went by too fast. i can confirm it has been an interesting experience writing this. i would just open this book and write my feelings through a diary entry, it felt so good writing.

i really hope you enjoyed this book because this was my first one, very unplanned and i don't think i ever expected it to finish writing it. though i have much better books planned, and i will prewrite, this is my first book to be completed and it feels like a huge accomplishment even if it might not be the best one.

thank you for being here and reading this book

- signing off, theo ♥️