JENLISA | ANGUISH |

Chapter 11 - Jennie

With my busy schedule today, I shouldn't have drank too much last night and now I have a headache. Today is press day for The Idol. There's a photo op, interviews and more. There was no time to rest and think. It's for the best, because I don't think I can function properly today after what transpired last night.

"Here." Alison says as she hands me a bottle of water.

"Thank you." Taking the bottle from her. With my "I" personality, I am very thankful that I have Alison with me in this new environment. In the past, it was always the four of us doing stuff like this. Now, sometimes we all have to do things alone. It's lonely, yes, but I am very proud of the things we have achieved as a group and as an individual.

"Have you heard anything from Alice?" I ask Alison.

"Like what?" She asks puzzled.

I shake my head. "Nevermind."

"If you want to ask about Lisa just say it." She smiles. "Are you guys okay now?"

"Not even a little bit."

"What? But you slept in her room." She says in disbelief.

"I did because she's a good person. I was a little drunk so she let me sleep in her room." Then I remembered something. "By the way, how did you know that I was in her room?"

"She texted me at dawn saying that if i come to get you for your schedule and you weren't in your room that you'll be in hers and to ask Alice for the key card." She answers.

She really thought of everything, even left me some aspirin and a bottle of water on the nightstand.

"They are probably about to leave the hotel by now. Alice said their flight will be at noon." Alison says.

It wasn't the information I really wanted but I'll take it. One of the organizers is calling me for the next interview schedule. I nod and follow him. Hoping this will take my mind off of last night.

And yes, I remember everything.

***

Now on a plane waiting, I decided to text Lisa. I keep on typing then deleting my texts. So I decided to keep it simple.

"I just wanted to thank you for taking care of me the other night. I hope I didn't do anything too stupid. And I'm sorry if I disturbed you that night.

-J"

Lying to her that I don't remember what happened that night is wrong but I think it's for the best. Yeah, like how you kept your relationship a secret from her and it blew up on your face. Throwing my phone on the table I sigh and close my eyes.

Many things happened that night, so I retrace the memory in my head. Her eyes, when she said that I looked beautiful on the red carpet were so sincere and full of love that I felt a pinch in my heart. The touches, when she changed my clothes were so careful like she was holding a precious diamond. Finally the confession, I didn't know that she had feelings for me for that long.

I was already awake way before she sat on the chair beside the bed. I was afraid she'll send me back to my room when so notices I was awake so I just pretended I was still asleep. When she said 'I need to let you go now' I felt a pinch in my heart again. I never felt this before so I don't know what it means.

I heard some rustling so I open my eyes. I smile.

"Hey Jen." Taehyung oppa says opening his arms. I stand to give him a hug. "I'm sorry for keeping you waiting." He kisses my forehead. A memory of Lisa kissing my forehead flashes on my mind. What the hell? I ignore it.

"It's okay oppa, we planned this together so you don't have to be sorry." I tell him breaking the hug and sat down.

When we knew we would be leaving on the same day we decided to just ride on the private jet his agency booked. The rest of our staff are on their scheduled flight. The jet will head to Thailand to drop me off then to South Korea.

The jet is now in the air. We were catching each other up on the things we did when we were in France. Me telling him my stories about Cannes and the day that followed. Him telling me about the Celine event and the many famous people he met.

"Oh! I talked to Lisa that night." He says.

"Really? What did you guys talked about?" Feeling nervous about what Lisa might have said.

"I told her that I have genuine feelings for you and that I'll never hurt you intentionally. That you always tell me that they are the sisters you never had."

Why did he have to use the word 'sisters' in front of Lisa? He doesn't know, I remind myself.

He continues. "I'm repeating this word for word." He assures me. "They're my family too so if you hurt her, you hurt all of us. And I'm not afraid to get physical to protect them. Do you understand oppa?" He laughs.

"What's funny?" Puzzled.

"Just thinking about what damage she could do with that little body." Looking at my face, quickly sobering up. "Not that I'm planning on hurting you."

Ignoring the insult he gave Lisa. I look at my phone and still no reply from her.

"I have something to tell you but you have to promise not to tell Lisa."

Great! Another secret to keep from her but it's not like we are on speaking terms. "Okay." I say.

"I think Bogum hyung likes Lisa."

I froze. "Why do you think that?"

"He's so attentive to her. When her drink is empty he asks her if she wants another, when she takes a seat he pulls the chair for her and he always look for Lisa at the party." Not noticing my silence he continues. "We should definitely set them up. We could all go have dinner together..."

I couldn't hear anything after that. Thinking of Lisa going on dates with him... I feel it again,

A pinch in my heart.