Diaries of the Damaged (BxB)

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October 24th, 2019

"Dear diary, today is my 14th birthday. Happy birthday to me I guess. I stopped really caring about my birthdays a long time ago. I just don't really see the point in celebrating my life, to be honest. My habit of cutting myself has gotten worse. I feel like I have no control over it anymore, like it's consuming me. I mean, I didn't even have that bad of a day today. I hung out with Ian and he even got me a present. I had fun, I really did. But I still want to do it. I just can't stop thinking about it, I can't calm down until I do it.

...I did it."
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Elio's pov:

I just got out of the shower at Wes's place, walking out only in a bathrobe. I saw Wes lying in his bed without a shirt on, scrolling through his phone. Shit, we actually just fucked. Like an actual couple. Shit, this is so awkward. And I'm sure I creeped him out earlier with my comment...How should I approach him now?

He noticed me walking towards him and smiled, putting down his phone.

-"Hey, are you feeling okay? Does it hurt?"-he asked.

-"A-a a little, but it's fine...um...can you give me some clean clothes to change into?"-I stuttered.

-"Yeah sure, just a sec."- He got up and went through his closet, taking out a t-shirt and sweatpants. He acts so normal and unbothered...

-"These are the smallest I have. I think they will be good enough though. Just tighten the sweatpants a little."

-"O-okay, thank you..."-He smiled and hugged me tightly.

-"No need to be awkward or uncomfortable, we didn't do anything bad, you know."

-"It's just...all of this is so new to me..."-He nodded, kissing the top of my head.

-"I know, it's okay...I like that your hair smells like my shampoo. Such a turn on."-He said in a joking voice. I laughed a little.

-"Pervert..."

-"I'll go shower real quick, see you in a bit."- He said, kissing me on the temple, and left the room.

I got dressed and sat on the bed, watching a movie that was on TV. A few minutes later, Wes's phone started ringing. It was Marianne. Shit, should I answer? It might be some work emergency...I'll just pick up.

Elio: Um, h-

Marianne: Where are you!? Do you know that everyone else returned except you and Elio!? I swear to God, Wes, if you get us both into trouble just because you wanted to get laid, I'll-

Elio: Um, it's me, Elio...Wes is showering right now...

Marianne: Oh...shit...Darlin', listen-

Elio: I....I'm sorry for causing problems...don't just blame Wes, I'm to blame as well...I'm really sorry, Marianne...

Marianne: No, Elio, don't feel bad, it's fine really-

The phone was snatched from my hand. I saw Wes standing behind me, wearing just the towel around his hips.

Wes: I'm sorry for being late, we'll be there in 15 minutes.