『m』『e』『?』『?』Part #2

So I'm back? Kinda?

So I'm here under drafts plotting... but to be honest I'm at war with myself... I want rewrite some things... start over from scratch and on keep a few key points in some of the stories I wrote here cause unfortunately I have a scatter brain and I just go off topic sometimes and then try to go back on topic but my entwined thoughts always loses people eventually... to be honest I can't help it cause that's how I am... a scatter brain but yeah... anyway I'm still mad at wattpad for not letting me have the text to speech feature in my book like webnovel allows so I think I might move there after some time. Webnovel did offer to take me on as a writer unlike here however I'm not done with my works so I just wanna not wake up at the moment... been really drained from anemia as always... it feels chronic at this point. Anyway I'll try to update my books.

When I'm done I'll take them down and send them directly to webnovel submissions while removing them from wattpad entirely cause lets face it I ain't gonna grow here plus I saw webnovel takes people to China and hey I defo wouldn't mind travelling if they'll have me after I can manage to write better and not burn out. Yes I wrote unhinged sh!t here but I wanted freedom so I wrote what I felt like regardless of who I may have offended... I'm not saying I condone hate speech cause I don't but I either talked sh!t or ranted a little. I didn't talk about my life as a whole though cause that's not everyone's business although I can say from experience irl everyone keeps asking me what I'm doing with my life as if they paying my living expenses. Or trying to find out if I'm with someone which also isn't their business and all I want to do is sleep whole day and not exist. Sometimes I want to be invisible so I can travel the world and go to empty places without having to be around anyone... I don't hate people and I met some nice folks but also I don't like to be around a lot of people too.

Beyond this... I am gaming... I made a gaming page on insta recently where I share my in game pics and I'm thinking of writing a book based on my gaming experience of having luck in a video game but not in irl because this is actually my current situation like the anime titled no game no life... anywho, anyhow, anyway, yes I have lots of luck online, irl though? I really wish that luck was on my side if I played the lottery... it would be great... like Cyan from To be hero x...

Anyway here's my gaming insta...

And here's my recent post...

Did a Crybaby cosplay in Dragon Raja for fun...

(I know Mel has a bit of controversy surrounding her but I really don't want to get into it and as a fan I just was making her character as something fun to do in a video game, I have done others too such as Bloom from winx club, Valtor and Coraline so I'm not like a die hard fan for Mel I just did this for fun like I did every other cosplay I did in this video game)

I can post more later... anyway I said some unhinged or weird or maybe not that crazy stuff in this book idk to me I sound crazy but idk maybe I sound sane to you based on the the sh!t I said or thought or overthought or wrote and almost half of what I said was irrelevant but I said it anyway... too much free speech what can I say...

Oh yeah and I'm still mad at wattpad about the whole no text to speech voice in my old books... so I have used AI as a tester to voice over one or two of the scenes in one of the books here plan was to make like an audio book on YouTube with male and female voices for each character since yes I'm still mad at wattpad but I stopped cause yeah I also don't really like AI but some stuff is interesting to do with it like I turned my poems into songs that was kinda cool but yeah musicians are so mad even with a synthetic voice that sounds like no human musician they still say it's stolen but when I made my poems into songs I filled in what genre I wanted I didn't say copy this or that singer cause I wanted it to sound original regardless of the controversy and the songs that came out of it sure do sound different to most of what I listened to but... also btw don't you dare tell me to pay a musician to sing my poems the reason I wrote them and showed how they'd sound as songs is cause I thought maybe if they could see the potential of my poems they can use them for a real song and that was my plan since my poetry getting a bit of coin would be nice you know after all I did write them and yes AI is never used in my writing process which is why I feel my songs had a human touch to them even if a robot was spilling out my words and some songs out there don't really sound good either so like if you want ideas or someone to come up with something I was trying to show my potential to make a song with my poetry...

But yes wattpad I'm still mad at you... I am thinking of leaving this platform not that wattpad cares or others here but like I said after I finish my books I'll be sending them to webnovel and then taking them down here but not yet so stay with me through my unstable process if you still here I hope...

Anyway that's all I have to say for now I'll type again later or try to update one of my books here if I can but for now this is all I have to say... see you for now?

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