Hate That Monsta LXVER (ENGLISH VERSION)

Chapter 25

Joo Hee: What do you think I'm doing, Jooheon? Your little game is ridiculous. If you love each other, why continue to run after each other forever? You're not tired? If I was you, I would be.

She's losing her mind I think. I admit she was right on some points. No, she was right about everything she said. Jooheon and I looked surprised by his sermon. She was almost yelling. Two seconds ago, she comforted me and boom, she was transformed into a terrifying monster (with the exception of her voice which makes the thing less credible).

Joo Hee: I would want to talk for you, because I know how you feel for each other, but it's up to you to make the step. I won't force you either but you would stop wasting time for crap.

What I hated the most in people is when those who aren't in your situation find ways to get things done faster. It's so easy to say when it's not you who must do it.

Joo Hee: Since you don't say anything, I'm going back inside. Do not you dare come back as nothing is settled. I think this story annoys almost everyone so save them from your quarrels now.

She left like that and let us alone. I sat on the bench and looked across the street, as far as possible. Jooheon, who was standing, was looking at the floor. Although deep down we were also annoyed by this story, we didn't want to talk.

Maybe also because we knew that 3/4 of our conversations ended badly. There was a blockage somewhere. From what Joo Hee said, he loved me and he would tell me in time. Why not now? It was the perfect timing. But if I was to end up alone again tonight, I preferred not to talk about it.

Jooheon: So uh... How did it happen with Kihyun?

Why am I in this mess?

Me: I don't date Kihyun...

Jooheon: What?

Me: It's kind of the same as you and Joo Hee.

Jooheon: Why have you lied? Can you imagine how I was mad at you?

He was the one who rejected me and it's all my fault, he's the victim and I'm the bad person.

Me: I'll make you notice that you did the same thing tonight. In short, I propose that we go join them by pretending that everything is settled.

He hesitated, but finally agreed. We were just pushing to later the conversation we definitely needed to have to end this vicious circle.

When I came back to my place, Kihyun put his hands on my cheeks and gave me a kiss on the lips. Despite my surprise, I didn't step back and let him do. Jooheon gave me a look that spoke a lot. Bretrayal. I didn't just told him that I wasn't dating Kihyun. Despite this accident, the end of the evening went perfectly.

Before returning home, I warned Kihyun that our little game was over because Jooheon had discovered it (actually it's me who told him, but he didn't need to know) and then , it freed me of a weight on the shoulders.

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I was lying on my bed with no precise thought. My phone rang warning me that I had received a new text message. As soon as I saw the name of Jooheon, I eagerly read what he had written.

"I've been thinking and I think the best thing for us would be to stop seeing each other."

That we stop to see each other? What is he talking about?

"What do you mean?"

"That we avoid contact. It will be easier to forget each other that way. And you can still hang out with the guys, as long as I'm not there."

I wasn't sure I understand. Why is everyone telling me he loved me when the only thing I get from him is that he wants to cut off contact? He wanted to make me depressed or what?

"But why?"

"Because it will never work."

What was that joke? Because I didn't finnd it funny at all.

"And what do we do at the agency? I won't stop to come just because you're there."

"Ignore me. And don't talk to me. I'll do the same."

You know that feeling of receiving full of stab wounds in the belly? This is exactly what I felt.

I sent him messages, but he didn't answer. I stopped, fearing that he would block my number. Weeks of torture would begin.

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I spent the next two weeks at the agency since they were everywhere in the country to do promo. The week after, I practiced at home and occasionally received the visite of one or more members. I avoided to ask about Jooheon (I thought it might help me to forget him) and the guys avoided talking about him.

On Friday night the 4th week, the guys invited me to their dormitory for a small party. They swore that Jooheon wouldn't leave his room because he was sick and rested. Obviously, he wasn't aware of my coming. It was okay like this.

Indeed, when I arrived, I saw no trace of Jooheon. The bedroom door was closed and Minhyuk assured me that he slept.

Hyungwon proposed to play Twister. Easy for him, he was ultra-flexible but me... I was as flexible as a wooden board.

We split into groups of 3 and 4. The first group had Kihyun, Wonho and Hyungwon and the second one, me, Minhyuk, I.M and Shownu. The game began with the first group and I was frankly impressed by how much they were gifted.

We heard ringing from the room where Jooheon was sleeping.

Kihyun (with a weak voice because he was in an unlikely position): Damn, that's my phone.

Me: Oh, I'll go.

I said it so impulsively. I still had this protective instinct towards Jooheon. I wanted him to rest well without being disturbed.

I.M: Are you sure..?

But I was already gone to the room.

Jooheon seemed to be still asleep so I hurried to pick up the phone and stop the ringing before he wakes up. Unfortunately, I hadn't done fast enough.

Jooheon: Ha Neul?

Damn, damn, damn, what am I doing? If I had a logical reasoning, I would leave, ignoring him, but his voice, him, I missed them so much to me.

Me: Sorry to have woken you up.

Jooheon: I wasn't sleeping anyway.

My heart started beating faster. I was having a completely banal conversation with him. We haven't talked to each other for one month. All the stress that I had during these weeks were gone. By opening his mouth only two times, he pushed away all my stress.

He got up and sat on the bed. I didn't know how to act. I didn't know what to say either. What I can say anyway?

I had to return to the living room otherwise the guys were going to wonder what takes me so long. I dropped my phone on the bed of I.M and brought Kihyun's one to the living room. Then I pretended to rememeber that I had left my phone in the room and returned there.

When I entered, I saw the hand of Jooheon stretched towards me.

Jooheon: Come here...

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