Allerdale Hall. I should be dreaming again. 'What is wrong with me? Why do I keep dreaming about Allerdale hall?' I wondered. I started wandering around, hoping to find Thomas again. And finally I saw him. He was standing there, silent. He hadn't noticed me. "Thomas?" I said and he turned slowly. "Thomas, there is something I have to tell you..." I saterted saying. "You are pregnant. I know." He told me. "But, how is that possible?" I asked him." It's your dream my dear, you can do what ever you want." he said. Silence. For a minuite I thought that he would dissappear and I would wake up, but it didn't happen. " I miss you..." Thomas said a while ago. "Why did you leave me? Why did you leave me Edith?" he looked sad but angry too. "I...I didn't want to. Allan took me away. I miss you too, Thomas. I wish there was a way so that we could meet again but there isn't..." "There is always a way, you just don't want to find it. Because you have forgotten me!" he screamed. "I...I didn't... I would never..." I said weakly. "Don't play with my feelings, Edith! You don't care about me anymore! That's why you left!" I could understand that he was angry by his voice. "I'll leave you, Edith. Isn't this what you want?" "No, Thomas, please don't go!" I said, but it was too late. He had already dissappeared. Tears were falling from my eyes... "Please..."
I understood I couldn't bring him back. I had broken his heart. I had made him angry.
Unable to sleep more, I woke up. My hands were wet from my tears. 'Why did I let Allan to take me away? Why did I leave England?' That's what I was thinking about the rest of the night.'I have to go back. I have to see Thomas...'
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After I lost you
FanfictionAfter her husband's death, Edith gets back to Buffalo with Allan, but her life will never be the same. What secrets will be revealed? Will she stand living without Thomas or the past will haunt her forever?
